vexstar
05-22-2007, 06:04 PM
[note from moderator: this message is very heartfelt and accepted. thank you vexstar]
first of all i would very much like to apologies to jeremy and chris hamilton. at first i thought jeremy was just one of those jerks you find on any posting forum. you know the type, building their egos by belittling others in front of others. i felt if jeremy had something constructive to say to me, he would have sent me a private message and clued me in, (that's perhaps where i was clueless) instead of a public floggiing. i did in fact private message him and get personal, for this i apologies. chris told me i couldn’t advertise and i could not convince her that i was not and had not intention of doing so. so i figured it best not to confront her as vexstar with any other posts. so i signed in as cody. well when she edited my first posting as cody, i had to know why she edited out the name of the book i mentioned. so i e-mailed her and as vexstar and asked her why this was done. she told me that her intuition told her that cody and vexstar where the same person. i thought, “what intuition?” i as much as told chris it was me and i did not understand the sites policies. so i apologies to chris for believing she was just some old lady. it was feelings of the self and not those of my spirit which were deeply gored. this was brought on by being accused of trying to advertise on this site and such words as being called sad, underhanded, poor and dishonest. (wasn’t it ra that said, “if the shoe fits, fill it with water.”) as well as a darn near line by line, critiquing of what i know to be true. especially having my views called christian dogma. i have been called a heretic by the church, for my beliefs so dogma does not fit. as i stated in my post, these were the ideas i grew up with. i’ll admit i don’t know the finer points of the loo, but i have studied the children of the law of one teachings (evidently banned from this site. if you wish, tibetan monks,) white sorcery, ancient hebrew, the tarot, native american spiritualism, zen and countless other spiritualistic views throughout my lifetime. as well as channeling higher and lower dimensional beings, including higher onse of myself. one thing i know for sure, i will ascend when that time comes. if i may have a chance to explain, i would like to share with you, what your site and beliefs have done for me. and who and what i am.
to start with, david’s sessions with ra and the way i come to process them were quite a divine intervention, into my life. “jesus and the negative elite’ was the first and about eight others followed. i, in a meditative state listened and heard every word, all which were intended for me. the mention of tracking numbers on a clock and synchronistic realities is exactly what drove me to write a book.
since then, ra and the postings of his followers helped me put all the pieces of the puzzle i had been trying to finish since 1975 and form a crystal clear view of all eternity. then i was directed to david’s site and this forum. as i read, i was amazed that there were so many others with ideas which rivaled my own when it came to being way, way beyond the so called reality of this 3d world. now here is where i went astray, i considered if i could fit all the pieces of reality together in the world as i knew it, then i could bring your beliefs and understand of your loo into my picture and give a simple synopsis of the whole picture. this is where the blending of childhood beliefs of christianity and let say the astral butterfly or einstein’s devil physics, may have caused a christian dogma label to come into play.
next came my first posting of “what would you have done?” my whole point of going into great detail about the synchronicity of my story was intended to see if any others of you would and relate in such great detail, such stories. i soon found my posting did in fact become a moral issue and my morals were never to come into play at this point, heck i confessed and did sin. (cast the first stone and all that.) perhaps this is where christian dogma, fits best?
anyway, my first posting as vexstar was an excerpt from my book and then my second posting never made the forum, because chris realized; it and my first posting were from my book, after i sent her the publisher pdf file of my book. thanks for the prayers and the light you sent my way, but i am in no means sad.
but here is the interesting part and point of this whole long winded explanation and apology. that one and only short lived posting as vexstar caught the attention and direct e-mail to me, from a person which has changed my life. that is my point: “it’s all good in the one.” and my life of synchronicity has been intensified exponentially. do to; divine intervention. thanks for your time and effort to get me on track.
i leave you with this:
just happens to be from today’s “think on these things.”
yet as we look into the infinity of space and time we realize there is then that force, that influence also that is aware of the needs, and there is also that will, that choice given to the souls of men that they may be used, that they may be one, that they may apply same in their own feeble, weak ways perhaps; yet that comes to mean, comes to signify, comes to manifest in the lives of those that have lost their way, that very influence ye seek in the knowledge of god.
for until ye become as a savior, as a help to some soul that has lost hope, lost its way, ye do not fully comprehend the god within, the god without.
edgar cayce reading 1158-14
p.s.
"ra, i’ll see you back at the ranch.
ra, ra, sys boom ba."
he hates that!!! lol
ra says:
“when the system goes boom, ba!”
“mary had a little lamb.”
oh, lighten up!!!
first of all i would very much like to apologies to jeremy and chris hamilton. at first i thought jeremy was just one of those jerks you find on any posting forum. you know the type, building their egos by belittling others in front of others. i felt if jeremy had something constructive to say to me, he would have sent me a private message and clued me in, (that's perhaps where i was clueless) instead of a public floggiing. i did in fact private message him and get personal, for this i apologies. chris told me i couldn’t advertise and i could not convince her that i was not and had not intention of doing so. so i figured it best not to confront her as vexstar with any other posts. so i signed in as cody. well when she edited my first posting as cody, i had to know why she edited out the name of the book i mentioned. so i e-mailed her and as vexstar and asked her why this was done. she told me that her intuition told her that cody and vexstar where the same person. i thought, “what intuition?” i as much as told chris it was me and i did not understand the sites policies. so i apologies to chris for believing she was just some old lady. it was feelings of the self and not those of my spirit which were deeply gored. this was brought on by being accused of trying to advertise on this site and such words as being called sad, underhanded, poor and dishonest. (wasn’t it ra that said, “if the shoe fits, fill it with water.”) as well as a darn near line by line, critiquing of what i know to be true. especially having my views called christian dogma. i have been called a heretic by the church, for my beliefs so dogma does not fit. as i stated in my post, these were the ideas i grew up with. i’ll admit i don’t know the finer points of the loo, but i have studied the children of the law of one teachings (evidently banned from this site. if you wish, tibetan monks,) white sorcery, ancient hebrew, the tarot, native american spiritualism, zen and countless other spiritualistic views throughout my lifetime. as well as channeling higher and lower dimensional beings, including higher onse of myself. one thing i know for sure, i will ascend when that time comes. if i may have a chance to explain, i would like to share with you, what your site and beliefs have done for me. and who and what i am.
to start with, david’s sessions with ra and the way i come to process them were quite a divine intervention, into my life. “jesus and the negative elite’ was the first and about eight others followed. i, in a meditative state listened and heard every word, all which were intended for me. the mention of tracking numbers on a clock and synchronistic realities is exactly what drove me to write a book.
since then, ra and the postings of his followers helped me put all the pieces of the puzzle i had been trying to finish since 1975 and form a crystal clear view of all eternity. then i was directed to david’s site and this forum. as i read, i was amazed that there were so many others with ideas which rivaled my own when it came to being way, way beyond the so called reality of this 3d world. now here is where i went astray, i considered if i could fit all the pieces of reality together in the world as i knew it, then i could bring your beliefs and understand of your loo into my picture and give a simple synopsis of the whole picture. this is where the blending of childhood beliefs of christianity and let say the astral butterfly or einstein’s devil physics, may have caused a christian dogma label to come into play.
next came my first posting of “what would you have done?” my whole point of going into great detail about the synchronicity of my story was intended to see if any others of you would and relate in such great detail, such stories. i soon found my posting did in fact become a moral issue and my morals were never to come into play at this point, heck i confessed and did sin. (cast the first stone and all that.) perhaps this is where christian dogma, fits best?
anyway, my first posting as vexstar was an excerpt from my book and then my second posting never made the forum, because chris realized; it and my first posting were from my book, after i sent her the publisher pdf file of my book. thanks for the prayers and the light you sent my way, but i am in no means sad.
but here is the interesting part and point of this whole long winded explanation and apology. that one and only short lived posting as vexstar caught the attention and direct e-mail to me, from a person which has changed my life. that is my point: “it’s all good in the one.” and my life of synchronicity has been intensified exponentially. do to; divine intervention. thanks for your time and effort to get me on track.
i leave you with this:
just happens to be from today’s “think on these things.”
yet as we look into the infinity of space and time we realize there is then that force, that influence also that is aware of the needs, and there is also that will, that choice given to the souls of men that they may be used, that they may be one, that they may apply same in their own feeble, weak ways perhaps; yet that comes to mean, comes to signify, comes to manifest in the lives of those that have lost their way, that very influence ye seek in the knowledge of god.
for until ye become as a savior, as a help to some soul that has lost hope, lost its way, ye do not fully comprehend the god within, the god without.
edgar cayce reading 1158-14
p.s.
"ra, i’ll see you back at the ranch.
ra, ra, sys boom ba."
he hates that!!! lol
ra says:
“when the system goes boom, ba!”
“mary had a little lamb.”
oh, lighten up!!!