mario_leme2
01-23-2007, 10:57 AM
hello, everybody. my name is mario leme, 48, brazilian, musician
(drummer, singer, arranger, producer) and journalist, proud father of
alice, 8, a man who's happy to say that his inner self has suddenly
been blossoming from within ever since last october.
i've been doing a lot of reading in the last four months, and that has
made me realize that there are many people out there in seek for
enlightenment inside of knowledge, as if what you are to become
spiritually can be truly determined by what you learn.
of course i'm no better than the next man, but then i feel like i
might have a certain degree of contribution to add to this
perspective, one based on my own experience.
mankind as a species has completely lost track of our nature, so much
that we seem to not even recognize anymore that we might yet have had
one, in the past, much less that we do still have buried somewhere
deep inside our ego driven mental attitudes. our instinct, as i see
it, as that of not thinking, just acting on intelligent impulse (as
improvising musicians do all the time, btw, with uncanny results).
but natural instinct is in there, though, all the time, suffering
daily massacration from a culture that disguises pleasure in material
achievements, pushing the deepest nature of human essence far back
into oblivion, more and more, as if being happy only for the fact of
existing was some kind of psychotic condition instead of a profound
spiritual achievement.
and spiritual achievement is also starting to be driven by formulas,
by the banalalization of knowledge regarding a particular condition of
self - i.e. integration with the universe - that has always been
inside each and everyone of us no matter what had been, has been or
will be said about it.
but then as we try to "learn the misteries of oneness" from some
"owner's manual" instead of just letting go of ourselves and just be
happy for the simple sake of being, like a "madman" would ordinarily
be known to do, we start trying to do the same "technical mistake"
again, letting our anxiety show through as we search for ourselves
outside of ourselves, mimicking, being our own masters on another
puppet game.
we probably won't find it there, not at all, unless by accidental
coincidence, wich will only mean we had to find it at that point and
would probably do so without that much help.
we probably won't find anything else than general guide rules to
salvation, ascension or whatever name may be given to simply being
natural.
we probably will once again be looking at "what has to be", then, as
we go on mimicking behaviors as well as any other different social
conducts are to be correctly shown in daily life ("hold your fork
propoerly, dear").
we will still know nothing, as we do not know and were not intended to
know, from the start, but yet will tend to feel as if we have found it.
big mistake. one cannot find what has not been lost, as is the case
with our nature, for if it is not easily seen that does not mean that
it is not there, with us, when we sleep, for instance, if not on anyt
other stance.
one thing we should (or must) realize is that our perception regarding
whatever object - and that does include god and the universe - is
indifferent to the object.
it does not matter whether this perception is subjective (personal
opinion or feeling) or objective (scientifical) - that does not alter
our reality in the wider sense, it does not alter that which cannot be
controled in our relations with the object.
and that is most expecially true in regard of objects beyond our
reach. we cannot change the universe unless on your own subjective
individual perception about it. the universe does not "care", it will
go on in its rhythmical ways regardless of men. our job is (or should
have been) to just plainly be and take care of our own businness, in
perfect communion with our planetary nature.
we were meant to live within our nature as another part of the cycle,
and one utterly unimportant one, at that, doing so sheltered by as
much trust in the rhythm of unity as any other species does instinctly
give it, that same inherent trust that is given unto life by all kinds
of animals different from man.
so the bottom line here would be: stop searching and you will find it
in yourself, and i guess falling deeply in love with yourself is the
first step, a love with no boundaries, not selfish but full of self.
(drummer, singer, arranger, producer) and journalist, proud father of
alice, 8, a man who's happy to say that his inner self has suddenly
been blossoming from within ever since last october.
i've been doing a lot of reading in the last four months, and that has
made me realize that there are many people out there in seek for
enlightenment inside of knowledge, as if what you are to become
spiritually can be truly determined by what you learn.
of course i'm no better than the next man, but then i feel like i
might have a certain degree of contribution to add to this
perspective, one based on my own experience.
mankind as a species has completely lost track of our nature, so much
that we seem to not even recognize anymore that we might yet have had
one, in the past, much less that we do still have buried somewhere
deep inside our ego driven mental attitudes. our instinct, as i see
it, as that of not thinking, just acting on intelligent impulse (as
improvising musicians do all the time, btw, with uncanny results).
but natural instinct is in there, though, all the time, suffering
daily massacration from a culture that disguises pleasure in material
achievements, pushing the deepest nature of human essence far back
into oblivion, more and more, as if being happy only for the fact of
existing was some kind of psychotic condition instead of a profound
spiritual achievement.
and spiritual achievement is also starting to be driven by formulas,
by the banalalization of knowledge regarding a particular condition of
self - i.e. integration with the universe - that has always been
inside each and everyone of us no matter what had been, has been or
will be said about it.
but then as we try to "learn the misteries of oneness" from some
"owner's manual" instead of just letting go of ourselves and just be
happy for the simple sake of being, like a "madman" would ordinarily
be known to do, we start trying to do the same "technical mistake"
again, letting our anxiety show through as we search for ourselves
outside of ourselves, mimicking, being our own masters on another
puppet game.
we probably won't find it there, not at all, unless by accidental
coincidence, wich will only mean we had to find it at that point and
would probably do so without that much help.
we probably won't find anything else than general guide rules to
salvation, ascension or whatever name may be given to simply being
natural.
we probably will once again be looking at "what has to be", then, as
we go on mimicking behaviors as well as any other different social
conducts are to be correctly shown in daily life ("hold your fork
propoerly, dear").
we will still know nothing, as we do not know and were not intended to
know, from the start, but yet will tend to feel as if we have found it.
big mistake. one cannot find what has not been lost, as is the case
with our nature, for if it is not easily seen that does not mean that
it is not there, with us, when we sleep, for instance, if not on anyt
other stance.
one thing we should (or must) realize is that our perception regarding
whatever object - and that does include god and the universe - is
indifferent to the object.
it does not matter whether this perception is subjective (personal
opinion or feeling) or objective (scientifical) - that does not alter
our reality in the wider sense, it does not alter that which cannot be
controled in our relations with the object.
and that is most expecially true in regard of objects beyond our
reach. we cannot change the universe unless on your own subjective
individual perception about it. the universe does not "care", it will
go on in its rhythmical ways regardless of men. our job is (or should
have been) to just plainly be and take care of our own businness, in
perfect communion with our planetary nature.
we were meant to live within our nature as another part of the cycle,
and one utterly unimportant one, at that, doing so sheltered by as
much trust in the rhythm of unity as any other species does instinctly
give it, that same inherent trust that is given unto life by all kinds
of animals different from man.
so the bottom line here would be: stop searching and you will find it
in yourself, and i guess falling deeply in love with yourself is the
first step, a love with no boundaries, not selfish but full of self.