David Wilcock
09-10-2006, 05:28 AM
Hey guys and gals,
Though I may be acting codependently and caretaking, for the sake of
administrative convenience let's again say for the record that the list of
guidelines is posted AUTOMATICALLY each Saturday night. It is not in
response to any one person's post, ever. All moderation issues are dealt
with privately.
We are on the brink of having our first Eleusinian mystery-school text
ready, but there are still three people who haven't given us their 10 pages
yet. Chris has been dealing with this privately, and if they are not
finished they will be reassigned - but we don't want to duplicate our
efforts. I'm going to start scanning in the next crop of books once we get
the first one finished, and have plenty to do in the meantime. Once we get
the pages consolidated I'm going to do one final editing pass, and then
we'll be putting it into PDF form for easy reading and downloading.
Larry has finally gotten me fully trained on my audio archive, so I'm now
finally able to update it as often as necessary. We're also discussing a
change in the interface that we can do when I have more funding, which will
make the whole website function much more like Itunes as we get ready for
the film.
There are actually so many good things going on that as you can see, I'm up
really late. I've literally gone through all my closets and eliminated five
different boxes worth of stuff, much of which was superfluous audio cables
that are now going to find new homes through Goodwill. I also just threw
away or recycled a lot of stuff as well. I was having some major hassles
with a memory upgrade to my music studio, bumping it up to 2GB, but Larry
was able to talk me through the whole thing. Now the whole ensemble is
working so well I can hardly believe my ears. There are MANY great things
ahead.
There's a psychological component to the physical cleansing of the space as
well - finally learning to claim my own respect and power so that I am not
perpetually a target for manipulation from others. A critical threshold has
been reached in this category. I've been having dreams telling me, every
morning for well over a week, that I was really, really close to a
breakthrough but there was one little piece missing, and now I've finally
found that piece and am working on it.
There could well be a whole reading done on just the metaphysical importance
of cleaning your house and cleaning your bodily temple. Both aspects are SO
important. Oftentimes we have things sitting in the same place for so long
that we've long since given up the energy that was put into it. Clutter is
an externalized projection of a psychological state. Closets in particular
represent the subconscious mind, the buried stuff - so this is really
powerful change.
I know a lot of people idolize me - I certainly get enough emails like that
and it's gotten a lot worse - but I'm finally moving to a place where I feel
consistently good about myself without a sense of perpetual obligation to
sacrifice myself for others. One case in point was that on the flight back
from New York, I actually tilted my seat back in the airplane.
This may sound ridiculous, but I am so keen on not "infringing" on the
stranger behind me that even when people inevitably tilt their seats ALL the
way back, making me very claustrophobic, I have categorically REFUSED to do
the same thing to the person behind me - even on multi-hour international
flights! True. I only do it if the seat behind me is unoccupied, but I
realized that this was silly and the person who does not put their seat back
is making a choice of their own free will.
Another important point is that I am finally learning to say "no" to
invitations that I cannot meet or do not want to meet, and doing so without
any feelings of guilt. This again may seem strange, but I've been so oddly
over-balanced towards self-martyrdom in the past that I was very vulnerable,
particularly in person. Email I was able to have a wall with, but face to
face was really difficult - hence I almost never did readings in person
because people could just drag the session on and on by their desire.
I'm probably not doing a good job of conveying how heavy this shift really
is, because it's late and I'm tired and don't really have time to go through
multiple passes. Suffice it to say that when you finally DO feel good enough
about yourself, a decisive psychological switch can go off in your mind
where suddenly you are not self-sabotaging anymore, but have enlightened the
ego so that it can do its job in a healthy way as part of the greater
mind/body/spirit complex.
Peace be with you -
- David
Though I may be acting codependently and caretaking, for the sake of
administrative convenience let's again say for the record that the list of
guidelines is posted AUTOMATICALLY each Saturday night. It is not in
response to any one person's post, ever. All moderation issues are dealt
with privately.
We are on the brink of having our first Eleusinian mystery-school text
ready, but there are still three people who haven't given us their 10 pages
yet. Chris has been dealing with this privately, and if they are not
finished they will be reassigned - but we don't want to duplicate our
efforts. I'm going to start scanning in the next crop of books once we get
the first one finished, and have plenty to do in the meantime. Once we get
the pages consolidated I'm going to do one final editing pass, and then
we'll be putting it into PDF form for easy reading and downloading.
Larry has finally gotten me fully trained on my audio archive, so I'm now
finally able to update it as often as necessary. We're also discussing a
change in the interface that we can do when I have more funding, which will
make the whole website function much more like Itunes as we get ready for
the film.
There are actually so many good things going on that as you can see, I'm up
really late. I've literally gone through all my closets and eliminated five
different boxes worth of stuff, much of which was superfluous audio cables
that are now going to find new homes through Goodwill. I also just threw
away or recycled a lot of stuff as well. I was having some major hassles
with a memory upgrade to my music studio, bumping it up to 2GB, but Larry
was able to talk me through the whole thing. Now the whole ensemble is
working so well I can hardly believe my ears. There are MANY great things
ahead.
There's a psychological component to the physical cleansing of the space as
well - finally learning to claim my own respect and power so that I am not
perpetually a target for manipulation from others. A critical threshold has
been reached in this category. I've been having dreams telling me, every
morning for well over a week, that I was really, really close to a
breakthrough but there was one little piece missing, and now I've finally
found that piece and am working on it.
There could well be a whole reading done on just the metaphysical importance
of cleaning your house and cleaning your bodily temple. Both aspects are SO
important. Oftentimes we have things sitting in the same place for so long
that we've long since given up the energy that was put into it. Clutter is
an externalized projection of a psychological state. Closets in particular
represent the subconscious mind, the buried stuff - so this is really
powerful change.
I know a lot of people idolize me - I certainly get enough emails like that
and it's gotten a lot worse - but I'm finally moving to a place where I feel
consistently good about myself without a sense of perpetual obligation to
sacrifice myself for others. One case in point was that on the flight back
from New York, I actually tilted my seat back in the airplane.
This may sound ridiculous, but I am so keen on not "infringing" on the
stranger behind me that even when people inevitably tilt their seats ALL the
way back, making me very claustrophobic, I have categorically REFUSED to do
the same thing to the person behind me - even on multi-hour international
flights! True. I only do it if the seat behind me is unoccupied, but I
realized that this was silly and the person who does not put their seat back
is making a choice of their own free will.
Another important point is that I am finally learning to say "no" to
invitations that I cannot meet or do not want to meet, and doing so without
any feelings of guilt. This again may seem strange, but I've been so oddly
over-balanced towards self-martyrdom in the past that I was very vulnerable,
particularly in person. Email I was able to have a wall with, but face to
face was really difficult - hence I almost never did readings in person
because people could just drag the session on and on by their desire.
I'm probably not doing a good job of conveying how heavy this shift really
is, because it's late and I'm tired and don't really have time to go through
multiple passes. Suffice it to say that when you finally DO feel good enough
about yourself, a decisive psychological switch can go off in your mind
where suddenly you are not self-sabotaging anymore, but have enlightened the
ego so that it can do its job in a healthy way as part of the greater
mind/body/spirit complex.
Peace be with you -
- David