The Bliss of Being Alone

[Michael Bergman]

cheerful and true, i alone am all that there is. no matter where i am and
no matter whom i am with, i always feel alone. i cried many a tear when i
had my first glimpse of this self-realization as i remembered that what i
grew up to believe to be ?real? was in fact an illusion and nothing but a
figment of my fragmented imagination. the truth; however, that i have come
to accept is that i am alone, i always have been alone and i always will be
alone but you know what i am not sad or lonely at all with this knowledge
for i am in a constant expansion of playful pretend and laughter.

how can i be upset when i have such a delightful song to sing?

?row, row, row your boat,
gently down the stream.
merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
life is but a dream.?

i am the rower, i am the ores, i am the boat, i am the gentleness, i am the
stream, i am the life, i am the dream, and being all of those things how can
i not be but merry?

at first the feeling of being the master of the universe, the creator of the
creation, the imaginer of the imagination or in other words being the only
one to exist was a little scary and overwhelming but i have gotten used to
it and in fact i rather enjoy it for it sure beats the hell out of a god
that is outside the system waiting to make its last judgment on me and then
sending me to eternal damnation. don?t you think?

i mean seriously what is there to feel isolated from or afraid of when
everything is the same one no-thing that i am? the entire omniverse of
multi-dimensionality is my friend and why wouldn?t it be since all of it is
a portion of the intelligent consciousness that i am. in order to feel any
sense of loneliness there would first have to be a sense of being separate
and that i am not. i am not separate for i am every part and parcel that
makes up the whole.

i am all alone and no person, place or thing could bring me more joy than
that deep inner knowingness of remembering that there is only one eternal
being which all is, that is beyond yet at the same time within all these
playful experiences of duality and many-ness. the unified field of
consciousness permeates the entire universe as the infinite one. my
individual sense of identity is a focus of conscious awareness that taps
into the all-pervading potential of the unified field in order for
experience to be possible. let?s face it, i love to experience myself in as
many ways as can be conceived of.

what is there to fear when you are one and united in acceptance with all
that there is? when you have reconciled yourself with the entire universe,
when everywhere you look you only see another friendly aspect of yourself;
that is bliss, that is peace, and that is love. there is only one obstacle
that ever gets in the way of the bliss of being alone and that is the fear
of being judged as separate. judgment is an act of separation and with it
immediately comes the feelings of isolation, rejection, and sorrow. why let
the judgment of another or of your own rain on your parade? can you live
your life as if there is no other watching and waiting to judge and joke?
you know those times when you think you are all alone and make those silly
faces in the mirror, why not be that alone every moment of your life?

if you desire to walk around outside in the buff, why not just do it, all
the other animals are and you don?t see them being judged do you? if you
desire to hug every person that goes by and telling them how ?perfect,
innocent and whole? they are, what is stopping you from doing it? if you
want to sing at the top of your lungs without even knowing the words to the
song why hesitate and worry about another judging your voice? if you want
to dance like a crazy fool and let everything loose, why not? if you wish
to pick your nose and fling it half way across the room then why not go for
it? let judgment go already; let it go, let it go, let it go. think about
others how you would like to be thought of. be true to yourself, be who are
really are, be alone, be bliss, be one.

oh and by the way i am still working on that whole judgment thing :)

peace,
mikey

[madonnafra]

judgement is a sticky wicket. kind of like quicksand, the more we stuggle
with it the deeper we sink into it. it will be this way until we come to the
place of releasing and just let it be, acknowledging that we too are not
perfect. the old seeing a splinter in someone else's eye and not realizing that
we
have a log in our own.

i got that lesson full face a couple of weeks ago when i was having a grand
old pity party with myself about how so many people that i know don't follow
through with what they say they will do. i went into a self righteous stance
about how i make it a point to keep my word. then i was shown that i too,
without intent did the very same thing to a friend. he had sent me a personal
reading from the ll group that he wanted me to read. i e-mailed him back and
told
him that i had printed it out and would read it that night and let him know
what i thought the next day.

i completely forgot about it until creator told me to empty out my bag of
papers the next morning before leaving for work. i grabbed a pile of papers and
the ones that i inadvertantly left behind in the bag were the ones that i had
promised to read. right there in my face. i felt like a complete chump and
realized that i had done exactly what i had been accusing others of doing to me.
i didn't mean to forget but nevertheless i had.

now, i could have not told my friend what had happened. he would have never
known. the only one harmed by keeping it to myself would have been myself and
my own sense of shame. i knew that i needed to apologize for what i had done
and learn that just because someone doesn't do what they have said they would,
when they said they would, doesn't mean that it was a slight against me.

i have no right to judge someone else for anything for i do not know the
circumstances that surround anyone else in their own walk. nor can anyone truly
know the circumstances of mine. i do not appreciate it when someone judges me so
i must work diligently not to judge any one else either.

love and blessings,
gayle
gs5555
texas wind







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