Request for thoughts, prayers and healing energy

[Berry Chastain]

dear sisters and brother,

this is a simple request for your loving and healing light/love/energy to be sent to my partner-spouse ray. he had an exam with the doctor today following up on a blood clot situation last spring, and they think he may have another clot in the same leg. they want him in the hospital tomorrow for tests. this will be the 6th time this year he has been hospitalized. he is becoming discouraged and desparate as he so much wants to be a healthy and vital 75 year old person.

i ask for you to send any and all healing energy to him. he is receptive to anything that will open the pathway for healing for him. i am doing reiki, hoopononoponono, and eft. i thank you all for participating in this healing process for him. adonai

in the love and light of our one infinite creator.

berry

[astraya]

hi berry,

i'm sending you both healing and loving intention. the body is capable of amazing miracles.

best,
stacy

[transiten]

hello berry

i will send my thoughts to him at the same time i send healing thoughts to my lifecompanion shorthaired collie pajazzo ...yesterday the vet discovered he has testicle cancer and he will be castrated...

loving thoughts from liliane

[FIIISH]

berry,

i have performed a remote healing session for ray.

i suggest having him express permission to be healed
and to state the intent to release all that no longer
benefits his highest good.

you may find copper to be of some assistance.

i hope for the best for both of you.

fiiish

[DONNALEE]

i'll send him reiki tonight.

[Happystrings]

dear sisters and brother,

this is a simple request for your loving and healing light/love/energy to be sent to my partner-spouse ray. he had an exam with the doctor today following up on a blood clot situation last spring, and they think he may have another clot in the same leg. they want him in the hospital tomorrow for tests. this will be the 6th time this year he has been hospitalized. he is becoming discouraged and desparate as he so much wants to be a healthy and vital 75 year old person.

i ask for you to send any and all healing energy to him. he is receptive to anything that will open the pathway for healing for him. i am doing reiki, hoopononoponono, and eft. i thank you all for participating in this healing process for him. adonai

in the love and light of our one infinite creator.

berry

how is ray doing? there are many of us that have kept you and him in our prayers.

[Berry Chastain]

after the delay of the holiday ray has an appointment with an vein surgeon on monday to discuss the options which are open for him. i imagine that the doctor will want to examine him much more thoroughly before making any suggestions. i can't even imagine what will be the outcome, i only envision a healing procedure which will provide him a painfree set of legs without swelling and disabling affects.

i look at his face each day and see the etchings of pain there which he will not relate to me and my heart fractures into pieces with compassion and prayers of relief and piece for him. my abundant gratitude go to all of you who are keeping him in your constant prayers and meditations and reiki workings.

[astraya]

i only envision a healing procedure which will provide him a painfree set of legs without swelling and disabling affects.


i will do the same. best of luck, stacy

[BenOne]

hi, berry, it can be difficult to see bodies breakdown. especially when they are inhabited by someone you love. i have seen alot of lightwork being performed here so i will add some balance. drinking water in large amounts will thin the blood and help speed up the elimination process. a person should drink 1 ounce of water per pound of body weight per day, just to keep the river flowing. cayenne pepper is hot. it is also amazing for elastifying the veins. certainly a decrease in toxins would help. things that damage the blood system are cholesteral(found in animals), smoking, heavy metals, man-made food and ingredients. you know your situation best, the rule for healing is cleanse and nurish. cleanse and nurish on the etheric level also. drop the etherical bagage that seems to be at the "heart" of the matter.

[Berry Chastain]

thank you benone,
i have been working on all those things with him. his biggest problem is the power of attraction! he has it working against himself as he can't not think about his pain, illness, doctors, hospitals and his getting old! have you ever heard the phrase "worry-wart"? that's ray.

i have gotten him to drinking more water. getting him to consume cayenne chile is another thing. he won't eat anything too spicy much less hot chile. he won't even eat jalepenos.

i appreciate everyones loving thoughts and prayer and suggestions,
l&l
berry

[PriestOfLight]

my 6 year old son dominic was diagnosed with leukemia last month. it would seem it was caught early and that he is doing well with a combination of current treatments, natural healings, reiki, vibrational healing, and prayers. this is a trying time for him as well as myself and any thoughts, healing and prayers would be appreciated.

love and light

paul

[KassandraLoves]

sending!!!!!

[tuesday]

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wishing (and sending) you and your son all my best!

love,
tuesday

[Berry Chastain]

paul
your son is also in reiki energy, tonight.

if you will give me his first name, date of birth and what city you live in, i will add him to our reiki healing circle for him to receive reiki daily for as long as you wish.

[transiten]

me too:)

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[checkmate]

sending love, light and healing energies his way.

[astraya]

that is so sad...i will also send my ray of healing.
hugs,
stacy

[Happystrings]

consider it done.

[generally one-liners are not posted, so please be sure to lengthen your responses in affirmations]

[BenOne]

cleanse and nourish his body paul. natural healing is key. the alopaths methods are not harmonious with the body. look into [brand-please email] and other energy technologies which were developed to treat cancer.

cleanse:
drink water
in this order cleanse: bowel, liver/gall bladder, kidneys/bladder, blood
try bentonite clay baths to remove many toxins like: heavy metals, radiation.....

nourish:
drink water
rub organic cold pressed olive oil onto his skin
feed a mucousless diet: mainly raw, fruits, vegs, whole grains, nuts and seeds

cancer is enviromentally caused [moderators wish to say that there are also cancers genetically inherited]. however, we can withstand any amount of toxins if our minds and souls will it. this is why certain emotions lower our resistance and others raise our resistance to enviromental factors. the more toxic the enviroment, the more we need to conciouslly vibrate high.

empower your sun, make him laugh and turn the word cancer into a joke, laugh at it.

[Deambor]

paul, i'll be sending healing love energy to your son and your familiy tonight.
i'll focus on this tonight.

stay in peace.

deambor

[BenOne]

cancer is enviromentally caused [moderators wish to say that there are also cancers genetically inherited].

thank you for the balanced opinion. we inherit genes from our parents. sometimes these genes have been weakened by enviromental influences.
genes can also be improved upon by the enviroment. give the human cell every thing it needs to thrive and nothing that poisens it and it will reproduce healthier genes. our genes are just a blueprint of the current state of our body and they change continually.

i like to picture my cells reproducing younger and healthier. give it a try

praying for your son, he has the power to heal

[PriestOfLight]

thank you all for your healing thoughts and prayers. according to the doctors he is doing very well.

this said, i am also going to alternative medicine doctors that work with the current system. i view this as if we are going to heal or make progress we need not remove the current system but shine the light on it to raise it's vibration. i am taking every opportunity to promote alternative techniques and cures. the doctors i am working with are very open to listening to these ideas which has been a blessing. they will be working with biofeedback doctors, nutritionalists, reiki healers, acupuncturists, vibrational healers, and energy healers.

things are looking bright in the medical field.

love and light

paul

[PriestOfLight]

dominic is doing well and his leukemia is being classified as in remission. he is doing surprising well according the doctors and they are a bit curious as to why. i believe it is from all the healing thoughts and prayers being sent.

he is in great spirits and generally happy except if he gets a fever. i also check his chakra points with a pendulum and they are open and very strong. this would also points to all the healing thoughts and prayers being sent. previously some where a bit weak.

thank you all for your healing thoughts and prayers

love and light

paul

[transiten]

good news together with the improved situation in gaza!

:)transiten:)

[Chakramon]

in regard to ray's situation, i am sending love and light to him as i write this,and also, i posted an attachment on our other law of one tt introductory forum and the book i forum called journey into meditation. you and ray can download the pdf and you will recognize much in the short 17 pages, but the focus on practicing the intentional flow of prana in accord with the fact that energy follows conscious intent is more specifically why i bring it up. short and sweet getting right to the fundamental point, the author of this gracious document has helped me to so easily understand what amazing access we have through meditation, the very thing ra was describing to don in the sessions in book 3. enjoy and let me know what you think...
love/light, chris (aka chakramon)

[litllady]

sending you and your son love for a continued path of healing....

a piece of me is with you and yours

love lynette

[Deambor]

that's great news, paul.

i admit i was sort of focuising on dominic for a few days after i read your message.
i was working on him and one other person - a friend of our family - an elderly person.
it was during my evening meditations for about 10-15 minutes most when i was trying to send healing energy to him.
i was uising a "reflection mirror" technique.
so of course we'll never know whether it works or not but figure it can't hurt.
so let's believe the combine energy of this forum's participants, who responded to your request really works.

please do keep us posted as to further developments.

love

deambor

[Deerclan]

i have gotten him to drinking more water. getting him to consume cayenne chile is another thing. he won't eat anything too spicy much less hot chile. he won't even eat jalepenos.

well, ray could be my twin brother in that respect -- i love salsa, and even today i discovered (by accident, not my own cleverness) that salsa is delicious on baked potatoes. but asking me to eat anything hotter than "mild salsa" would be like asking me to eat cast iron, fresh out of the mold. i know peppers are healthy food, but for me they are just too hot.

berrry adds:
have you ever heard the phrase "worry-wart"? that's ray.

berry, my mom was the same way, and just as i suspected for the past 15 years, she had a medical condition called "depression." she is roughly in the same age bracket as ray, and grew up in an age where "mental problems" meant one thing - they take you away to the big ugly state hospital and lock you away for good. talk about dis-incentive for treatment! my mother finally acquiesced, after i told her a few simple facts about depressive disorders. she has started on the meds she needs, and she's like a new person. maybe ray grew up in a more enlightened place than my mom did, but either way, i suspect the hangup may be getting him to discuss his "feelings" - all of them - with a doctor. after all, a little bit of body chemistry out-of-whack in the pancreas can be diabetes, and the same thing in the brain can be depression. if a person has either one, not all the will power in the world will cause them to metabolize sugar properly, nor allow even the most positive soul to look on the bright side. it's a doctor's call, of course, and to make the right call, the doc must have the right information.

best of luck with it. i join voices with those who say please let us know how it goes.

"i appreciate everyones loving thoughts and prayer and suggestions,
l&l
berry"

you betcha. :)

[Berry Chastain]

i am on another message list that is run by a wonderful lady called karen karbo. i received this message from her assistant this morning caling for help for her. i am copying it here so that others may also send energy thoughts to her and so many others in the mid country area who were devastated by the ice storm yesterday and last night. i also experienced it but have electricy and so am staying warm and safe. many are not. here is the message i received.
love and light,
berry

a special healing prayer
posted by: "john moore"
tue jan 27, 2009 2:29 pm (pst)
hugs all,

i am john who assist/co-moderate for karen when she is unable to send
messages. i would like to put out a special request, for all who are able,
to send healing and loving protecting light to karen karbo. as you have seen
over your time here on ************, karen has always given what she
could to get the messages out to those who needed that specific information
to connect all the dots. right now, she is in her home in arkansas in the
middle of an ice storm and without electricity. by our combined energies, we
could probable warm up that whole area of the globe so please keep karen in
your thoughts and if you have that little extra energy to send her, i am
sure she would appreciate it. i know that this is not the purpose of this
list but i believe karen is special and would appreciate all the loving
energies that i am requesting to be sent her way.

for karen when you see this: we love you

hugs

john/earthchanges

[Djonne]

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on this picture is my dog, called frippon, meaning *funny*

one day, he started walking strange, and we did notice, but we thought he just *streched* a muscle or something. days later, he was at a comeplete stop, crying and yelling, not moving. i could see he was in big pain.
we went to the vet and she detected some injury to his back spinal cord.
she said that he needed to rest motionless in a cage for a full month, then slowly start walking again. now it's been 4 days.

now i'm trying really hard to focus and send energy to his back and his legs, and imagine him running at the ball, jumping etc. being alive basically.
i'm trying as hard as i can, but i'm the only one thinking about my best friend. my parents are still asleep, and believe science only can make it back healthy.

if he gets paralyzed, we could pay some surgery, but my parents are not ready to pay 2000$ for this, and would rather *kill* him. of course, i will not let this happen as they have no right to decide over him, and would go against his desire for life, his free will, unless he shows me he wants to die, which is absolutely not the case at the moment. i will stand for my friend all the way, and that is why i am trying to imagine healthy body, healthy back, to bring back a happy life to him.

i am not asking anyone to help me healing my friend, or other canine-self, but i would love if some people here could help me, if not in sending energy, giving some advices for healing his disc herniation.

i know that this, to some people, look selfish, but healing one living creature is healing a part of all of us, if we are one.

i love you all deeply.
je vous aimes

[transiten]

dear djonne

i'm a doglover and have a shorthaired collie. i would do anything for him. he came into my life when i most needed it and is still helping me with his beautiful soul.

i will send loving thoughts to your little friend:)


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[Rhonda]

your frippon is a beautiful soul. it sounds like you guys are doing alot to help him heal and repair himself. animals have a great ability to heal just like we do, so hang in there and keep your faith and that belief strong.


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on this picture is my dog, called frippon, meaning *funny*

a couple of thoughts:

when you work with him, if you are able to, touch him gently in the areas you are spending healing thoughts and energy to. continue with your routine, intention and perhaps add to the thoughts of circlulation and energy to continue fully to heal completely. touch is a very powerful to healing., we don't do it enough.

also, perhaps check for heat spots in certain areas of the body to focus on. this maybe were energy is block and not flowing correctly., just like us..... also, not sure if your vet might suggest cold packs or hot packs a few times a day.... this encourage circulation in these areas.

also, you may want to ask your vet about acupuncture, this is becoming more and more common with animal treatment and may be of some help at a small cost.

djonne, my heart goes out to you, frippon and your family. try not to be afraid, just be there for your friend and yourself. i send you loving prayer for a complete recovery. ps: be patience...... all in its own time !

[ayadew]

i will send healing intention djonne.

[Djonne]

hmm i didn't know about acupuncture, might work, as for hot spots, there are none, i can touch him anywhere, he's having a *disc herniation* in his spinal cord.

might ask my vet tomorrow about heat/cold as well as acupuncture. right now he's on medication to keep him calm otherwise, he'd be jumping and moving, which isn't good, he needs to rest.

i might give him some veggies too, instead of classic dog food.
hehe he's in real love with chicken, but i don't know why, he really loves cauliflower so i could give him some, mixed with other veggies.
anyway thank you to all if you can help my little friend.
he's 9 years old and got many years to go.

so thank you all for you intentions.
thank you very much
rwaf rwaf :)

[transiten]

well djonne...

now the turn has come to my darling lifecompanion...his leg has severely impaired...i live on the 3:rd floor, no elevator, and he has to descend and ascend all these stairs at least twice a day. i have an injured arm myself and cannot carry him down; he's too heavy anyway and the therapy that might help him is not available until next week....

i feel so sorry for him and search for the meaning of this...i'm in a crisis myself and my dog is a mirror....but i don't want him to suffer...

so i would be most thankful for your kind thoughts

thankyou from transiten

[coneyisland]

i'll send healing tonight!

[transiten]

coneyisland and others thanks:)

that was well needed since now the vet discovered my dogs thyroid gland is out of function and he's got arthritis in his backlegs. well he will be 13 aug 7 so in human years he is 95! i will give him all the care and medicaments he will need for the time he has left and i'm thankful even for "the ordinairy stuff" available. since he won't live for many years he won't suffer from possible side-effects.

blessings back from transiten

[Deerclan]

your doggie wants to know you're ok before he leaves. he's hanging on tenaciously. he will not let go until you tell him you heart has healed.

[Djonne]

well now he left us today, march 25th of the year 2009.
my mom had to do it cause his pain was getting slowly worse and worse, he couldn't move much without suffering.
personally i didn't want him to leave, but i think to end his pain, it was the thing to do. though i still believe his free will was not respected, but i think that he understands that and accepts his death.

now that he's gone, i just have a strange feeling that i will see him again somewhere, and that i will know when i'll see him.

for now, even if i try to see all the positive things that happened with him, all the fun i had, all the laughs he could get out of me, it's still pretty hard to hide my tears. it's hard to see a friend go away, but i really believe i will meet him again. i just have this impression that something is *drilling* in my head now as i write this. and i think i could hear or feel: i will come back.

with all the good things we did together, i think he would love to be back with us. he, i believe, had a dream dog's life.

he already misses me, but i know he'll always be around somewhere, i will just not pet him anymore.
i just want to send him all the love i can, all the good things i can to him.

love is really a wonderful thing, but right now, it is quite hard, but i love him so deeply.

i love you my dearest friend, frippon.

[Djonne]

one thing that is a real big sign to me, is, before going to a friend's house, this evening, i noticed that my car was showing exactly 5550 km since the last time i pushed the reset button.

it stopped at 555 exactly as i parked in my driveway, and to me, is a great sign that my feelings may not be only wishes, and 555, is just, as ra said, 5 is perfection. maybe my friend was guided to a *higher* place or something.

[conundrum]

that was well needed since now the vet discovered my dogs thyroid gland is out of function and he's got arthritis in his backlegs.

hmm kind of sounds like me a while back don't make him drink radio active orange juice regardless of what the good intentional vet says.

good intentions paved the road to hell (woof woof) ;)


your doggie wants to know you're ok before he leaves. he's hanging on tenaciously. he will not let go until you tell him you heart has healed.

its getting there... a toddler walked up to me the other day and wanted me to pick him up which is unusual so i did then he hugged me so i hugged him back usually i stay at least several feet away from them and them from me as they dribble and smell ect

i think i am mutating back into a human or some thing

[Deerclan]

i'd appreciate it if anyone who feels it in order to ask divine guidance in the safe return of a child to her home.

[Berry Chastain]

i'd appreciate it if anyone who feels it in order to ask divine guidance in the safe return of a child to her home.

you've already got it brother paul. many will be sending positive energy into this issue.
l&l
berry

[Jehanne]

there is a cousin on my boyfriends side of the family who recently discovered that she has breast cancer, and the doctors are urging her to have it removed. people in the family are very worried and i have been praying for her too. she is a young woman with two young children, 8 and 3. if anyone could join me in prayer and in sending her love and light, it would be greatly appreciated. also, if anyone has any recommendation on how to send healing, it would be great.
thanks so much!!

[Just Be]

hi everyone!

my younger brother have been abusing drugs for at least several years. we have tried putting him into various drug rehab program, but he keep reverting back to the drug/alcohol addiction.

i believe he must have some emotional trauma going on, but i am not sure where to begin to help him. of course, he needs to want to help himself to recover. i believe he does want to be better as long as the drugs are not controlling him. the biggest problem is that he can potentially hurt himself and others around him.

please pm me if anyone have any valuable resources or personal healing stories in regards to substance abuse. we are running out of ideas, not to mention we are all pretty exhausted and drained by all of this.

it would be much appreciated if you can please also say a simple prayer for my younger brother to find the source of his problems so he can heal and recover from his addictions. his name is cau.

thank you so much!!

[PriestOfLight]

send love and light for you and yours.

love and light

paul

[Just Be]

have anyone tried hypnotherapy? i wonder what is the rate of success for healing those undergoing substance abuse.

[Quaisar]

"of course, he needs to want to help himself to recover."

this is absolutely right. you may be able to help him see a more positive future, a more positive way to be, etc. but, no matter how much you try to change him or impose your will on him, it will not work.

there are many many methods of therapy that can help him, but he has to be willing to initiate the therapy and follow through with it. meditation i know would help a lot, but again there is no way to make him meditate.

show him how much you love him, wear your love on your sleeve! i've dealt with many people who were (or still are) addicted to drugs including my mother, father, and several friends. i think david put it best. he said something along the lines of 'addiction is caused by not loving oneself, or not taking the time to spend with ones own feelings'.

that is not a direct quote, but it contains the same message. addictions are a way to try to avoid what you're feeling inside. anyways, i hope the best for your brother and you, much love!

[Just Be]

thanks quaisar! i'm learning that only he can help himself. i actually live thousands of miles from him. my other family members deal with him first hand, so it's a lot more challenging for them. thanks for the wishes and the reminder.

[Anu]

they,aa only costs a dollar a day,if you don't have any money it costs nothing.
but its not about cost,and you didn't mention it.the people who the
12 steps stay clean,thats a fact,if someone has a great rehab program
they still need 12 steps the rest of their life,wish i had found the 12 steps in the 70's instead of a guru
yes there is a story how bill w got a reading from edgar cayce
thus the 12 steps to recovery

[litllady]

i humbly raise my head again to divine cosmos and the powers that i know are held here in you all.

my mother is fighting what may indeed be her last battle. my energies are low for so much is going on in the world around me now....but i am going to focus on a true healing through the power of the human hand and thought. i kindly ask anyone who can take a minute from their day to say her name(pam) and focus on healing the bone in her pelvic area from a staph infection that is resistant to antibiotics. if the staph does not clear up now that it is still in her bones...this could be it for her. she is running a fever and still showing positive cultures for staph even though she has been on the strongest antibiotic available to her for over a month. her situation is critical and can change fast.

she has been sent home on a certain antibiotic to take for the rest of her life. they say the only way to remove the staph would be to take more bone...they have already taken 6-8 inches of bone from her hip and say she would not make it through another surgery like that.

i am going to spend some time with hands on healing and i know this is going to take energy from me. i ask for others to send us strength, hope, and love to cope with 'come what may'. i am a strong believer in letting a path be....to not interfere with order and cycles. but...mabey there is a reason why we can heal others....if she could get rid of the staph (she has been fighting it over 3 yrs now)....then mabey she could add time to her life here.

any advice on healing is appreciated. thanks for thoughts and energies in advance!

my best to all,
lynette

[Happystrings]

a mrsa infection is tough. there are so many things to consider:
1) her attitude. does she want to stay? is she ready to leave? if so, her openness to healing will be minimal. and 'forcing' a healing would then be against her free-will. not a good thing.
2) what does she have to live for? what will make her eyes light up and set her to humming? if that is not present then, again, healing is highly unlikely.
3) how committed to healing is she? will she do fabulous nutrition, i.e., eat clean, healthy, fresh foods; use high potentcy supplements (if you are "into that"?)
4) is she capable of looking at the emotinal basis for the health issue? does she have the will to seek an answer to the question: what does this illness mean?

having lost a parent to als and another to cancer i can appreciate what you are going through...been there, done that, and have the gravemarkers to prove it.

will include your mom, pam and you in daily prayers with the request that what transpires is for everyones highest good.

[Larry Seyer]

i humbly raise my head again to divine cosmos and the powers that i know are held here in you all.

my mother is fighting what may indeed be her last battle. my energies are low for so much is going on in the world around me now....but i am going to focus on a true healing through the power of the human hand and thought. i kindly ask anyone who can take a minute from their day to say her name(pam) and focus on healing the bone in her pelvic area from a staph infection that is resistant to antibiotics. if the staph does not clear up now that it is still in her bones...this could be it for her. she is running a fever and still showing positive cultures for staph even though she has been on the strongest antibiotic available to her for over a month. her situation is critical and can change fast.

she has been sent home on a certain antibiotic to take for the rest of her life. they say the only way to remove the staph would be to take more bone...they have already taken 6-8 inches of bone from her hip and say she would not make it through another surgery like that.

i am going to spend some time with hands on healing and i know this is going to take energy from me. i ask for others to send us strength, hope, and love to cope with 'come what may'. i am a strong believer in letting a path be....to not interfere with order and cycles. but...mabey there is a reason why we can heal others....if she could get rid of the staph (she has been fighting it over 3 yrs now)....then mabey she could add time to her life here.

any advice on healing is appreciated. thanks for thoughts and energies in advance!

my best to all,
lynette

lynette,

i empathize what you are experiencing and hope this post will help in some way.

the following items are quotes from 'a course in miracles' which has helped me in countless ways over the last 20+ years and has helped me in many ways to deal with similar situations as yours:

"you first forgive, then pray, and you are healed. your prayer has risen up and called to god, who hears and answers. you have understood that you forgive and pray but for yourself. and in this understanding you are healed. in prayer you have united with your source, and understood that you have never left. this level cannot be attained until there is no hatred in your heart, and no desire to attack the son of god."

and also:

"never forget this; it is you who are god's son, and as you choose to be to him so are you to yourself, and god to you. nor will your judgment fail to reach to god, for you will give the role to him you see in his creation. do not choose amiss, or you will think that it is you who are creator in his place, and he is then no longer cause but only an effect. now healing is impossible, for he is blamed for your deception and your guilt. he who is love becomes the source of fear, for only fear can now be justified. vengeance is his. his great destroyer, death. and sickness, suffering and grievous loss become the lot of everyone on earth, which he abandoned to the devil's care, swearing he will deliver it no more."

and finally:

"no one is healed alone. this is the joyous song salvation sings to all who hear its voice. this statement cannot be too often remembered by all who see themselves as therapists. their patients can but be seen as the bringers of forgiveness, for it is they who come to demonstrate their sinlessness to eyes that still believe that sin is there to look upon. yet will the proof of sinlessness, seen in the patient and accepted in the therapist, offer the mind of both a covenant in which they meet and join and are as one."

one thing that seems to help me is to realize that this world is not our 'real world'... that it exists only as an 'illusion' of the 'real' world.

this can sometimes be hard to accept especially when faced with difficult situations like the one you are facing.

but the common theme that i am experiencing and the one that i share with you now is that we are not alone. and the everything happens for a reason and a purpose.

acceptance of all things that happen in your life is the key to happiness.

resistance to that which you cannot comprehend only lengthens the learning process that we all go through.

so in order to shorten the perceived time that we appear to be in pain, we need only forgive/accept whatever situation we experience at the moment and time will collapse and hasten our journey to love's awareness.

hopefully this helps.

if it does not, at the very least, i wish you all the best in whatever choices you make.

all the best to you!

larry

[litllady]

a mrsa infection is tough. there are so many things to consider:
1) her attitude. does she want to stay? is she ready to leave? if so, her openness to healing will be minimal. and 'forcing' a healing would then be against her free-will. not a good thing.
2) what does she have to live for? what will make her eyes light up and set her to humming? if that is not present then, again, healing is highly unlikely.
3) how committed to healing is she? will she do fabulous nutrition, i.e., eat clean, healthy, fresh foods; use high potentcy supplements (if you are "into that"?)
4) is she capable of looking at the emotinal basis for the health issue? does she have the will to seek an answer to the question: what does this illness mean?

having lost a parent to als and another to cancer i can appreciate what you are going through...been there, done that, and have the gravemarkers to prove it.

will include your mom, pam and you in daily prayers with the request that what transpires is for everyones highest good.

thanks for your thoughts and prayers happystrings...

you bring up great points that i ponder on also. she does want to stay...she is in no hurry to leave. i know some may not understand this...but she has a lot of love in her life here. i think though if time goes on without healing...she will also be ok with things either way. she has no fear of death....and her reasons for staying are not selfish...they are for teaching her grand children and spreading love and lessons...i believe she feels she is a conduit to what ever nature needs her to be.

her diet may be an issue...if the diet is a big deal. i myself find this to be so...that the more aware you are of what you eat...the more substances that are holding a workable vibration may be within you and work with you. i am trying to take her meals when i can...and while cooking i souly think of her and what the food needs to be...a base of a prodcut for healing and holding the energies she needs and is being sent.

she lives for others. she lights up when others smile, laugh and love. she lights up at feeling the wind and sun on her. ive decided that if i do hands on practices...i will bring her outside under the sun, amongst the winds...and mabey a time under the moon light. something last night told me to gather water in a clean bowl from the rain that came...after i forewarned her of a storm coming after i told her i sent out prayer requests for her. i got wrapped up in family matters and didnt gather the rain but this is an example of the way my mind and spirit works with ideas of nature. mom said she knew i sent out thoughts for her....she said last night before i even told her that she knew what i did. right after this...a storm came through and it just seemed so fitting.

she has done alot of emotional healing the past couple of years so i think she is ready to face all things but not sure if she is strong enough to face some of the more deeper wounds.

so some pros and cons...mabey positive thinking will float the boat for now. thanks for bringing up great points, i will talk to her about them all.

all my best

[litllady]

hi larry

thanks for your kind words for mom. your faith in the simplicity is refreshing for me. mabey my thoughts have become more complicated then they need to be in understanding the works of a 'miracle'.

thoughts for others are always a helping hand...it brings a light through a dark place...so thank you much.

what has lead me to thinking along the lines of actually needing hands on healing and possibly some other techniques is that we have been on this road a while now....she has been lifted to heaven and back (in my opinion) along with my voice and others voices. its like..how long can we stir gods path since it seems as if god was ready to take her over a yr ago. even though we have seen the beauty of 'making' or 'creating' our path and destiny....ultimately, god kindly reminds us....there is only so much we can do while here in this life. i feel that weight right now....the weight that there is only so much we can do.

i was thinking about things the other night...and the thought came to me that if there is more time to buy for her....it will be through humans desires that she stays as well as her own over all of them. for the first time i thought seriously about gathering energies for healing...and using myself as the instrument to send them into her. i know that sounds a little out there to some...and believe me, this would be a first for me as well. i am still unsure...but i did speak with her of it yesterday (she was enthralled, i on the other hand am more cautious). i have an urge to gather energies through thoughts and elements...and apply them to her to heal the bone of this infection.

mom and i have gotten through so much...we feel somewhat guilty of the blessing bestowed on her fighting through much more then a healthy person would mabey be able to fight through. for what ever reason...we know we are blessed and are thankful. but that ego in us says....what if we can hold out one more time...what if we can discover something that will be useful for our time as well as be a light unto our curious mystical minds.

i do believe in what you said....once you forgive the situation....there is power at hand. the human may stir that power for what they need or feel is fit to ask for. i should focus again on that...the very thought carries the vibration...which is all one needs. either our path has been set to see amazing things happen or we have stretched the sun dial on her path...and hoping still to stretch it a tad bit longer...always remaining humble in doing such things is what i pray.

all my best
lynette

[Happystrings]

thanks for your thoughts and prayers happystrings...

you bring up great points that i ponder on also...

...she has done alot of emotional healing the past couple of years so i think she is ready to face all things but not sure if she is strong enough to face some of the more deeper wounds.

and herein is the most power. it is sweet that she so loves the rest of the world; unbearable if she soes not love her self...in the deeper wounds are the seeds of the infection...it is problable that the deeper wounds are the source of what is "eating her up" and thus needs to be confronted. i don't know if you can help her do that. pretty tough for a child to help a parent with this type of personal issue...it gets entangled in the 'buttons' of your relationship.

i tried reading things like the prophet by gibran, to my mom when she was recovering from her stroke and hoped to lay a foundaton to begin more spiritual dialogues. (that was before i was introduced to acim and loo)...we could not overcome our parent child relationship/schtik, even though she was in her sixties and i was in my forties! you might consider bringing her a simple quote from acim or ra as a starter for a discussion / talk about forgiveness and healing. or pray for the right words to come to help open the door for her to confront the source feelings behind this health challenge...

[/quote]so some pros and cons...mabey positive thinking will float the boat for now. thanks for bringing up great points, i will talk to her about them all. [/quote]

in all things pray for the highest good for all involved. trust that all is as it should be. remember to give god your thanks and gratitude for all the goodness and beauty that this relationship with your mother has given you...

again my prayer for you and pam are given.

[aqcheryl]

this is kind of awkward for me because im not used to asking for help... strangely enough im used to voicing the situation, at least this specific situation, to any who will listen due to the dire situation... in some off-shoot hope i think that someone out there who hears this could help... all without me asking. and i know thats not right... if you want help, whatever keeps you from asking, you have to set it aside (be it pride or anything else, like in my case, i tend to feel unworthy to ask) and ask.
i have asked on a spiritual level, but even then i dont think i am doing it right.

so heres the situation.
i live in a tight knit community (aka a small mobile home park), we moved here when my mother remarried about 20 years ago. and never in all this time have we ever been faced with such deliberate persecution then the past two years. i find myself fighting prejudices i never had before, all because of this.
as the years progressed gradually the tenants moving in here were all of one culture. which i dont care, i respect everyones right to believe and be how they are - as long as it doesnt impose on me or mine.
when this first started happening, we tried to be neighborly, but i supposed due to the lack of communication (we do not know spanish), and what i had later come to realize - already built in reverse discrimination, we started having problems. this secluded us even more from being neighborly, because my family and i could only take so much of catcalling, dirty looks, etc.

they do not like us because of our race. i hate to use that word, i hate that separation, but im not the one forcing it to exist. for the past two years especially, they are trying to do everything in their power to get us out of here. and frankly, this is one battle i would be more than happy to let them win - because my family would win too, if we had the choice to move, we would! but we do not have the finances to move, and at this rate with the economy wouldnt until after ascension (lol)

it doesnt stop them though. when i saw them, i am referring to all the neighbors, its not just one house. but it is one main house that is doing the worst persecution. and this i really need prayers and positive affirmations. i just cannot do this on my own, and its not for lack of trying the best i could.

the family directly across from me, have been blasting their music every day, for several hours. when i say blasting, the bass shakes our windows. i am not against someone listening to their own music, but im against it coming in my house. we tried everything, first we tried asking politely, but that stopped working. then i wrote the owners of the park, and they sent out two useless letters addressing the whole park, and that did nothing. now they refuse to help in any form or manner, they dont care as long as they get their rent money. so we are left with our last option, calling the police every time this occurs.
the problem is, it takes the police up to two hours to show - if at all. by then, its too little too late. and when the police do show up and speak to them, that is all they do - a verbal warning. even though it is clear in our city ordinances that this is not acceptable (at any time of day), it seems our police force does not have the authorization to do more than a verbal warning. i did hear once that they might be able to issue a ticket if they have to come back again in the same day. however once they come out, the average person turns it off... for that day.
things have escalated now, though, that the people at this house, turn it right back up to make a point after the police leave. but they turn it up for ten seconds, then off. on, and then off, etc. ive seen them laughing after the police leave, they have no regard at all for the laws, or respect for anyone.

the people at this one house, they are also very threatening in their manner. i know they know that we are the ones that call, but its still not officially proven out in the open that its us. the police have told me that i can make a citizens arrest, that would be the next step -but see to do that not only do i then place my family in further danger (they have to walk the length of the park to get to the bus stop), but i just cant imagine doing this, because of the consequences. for starters, if i have them arrest the main culprit, the oldest son, hes going to have something on his record. he has to be no more than 15. if they arrest the father, then hes going to lose work time, and they have 2 other younger girls, and a baby in that house. so you see the consequences, its more at risk. thats not an option.

nor is suing them, or the landlord, at this stage. i have to work from home due to health problems that i have limited mobility, and i cannot work or function when the music starts. i cant work, so i cant get my business running to get bring in an income, how would i pay for a lawyer? much less the drama of mobility. ontop of all this, it really is a legal issue - its against city ordinances -which are laws. i shouldnt have to fight people in court.

i am at a loss of what to do, where to go, where to turn. the music is so loud it really can be construed as indirect physical assault. i have early onslaught tinnitus in my right ear from this, and a continuous swelling now in my right ear. when the music starts, im under spiritual attack... i feel it beating down on me, trying to break me. i am not someone who cries, but this... i have to continuously fight it. my emotions range from anger and aggression, to fear, hopelessness, despair, anxiety, stress, paranoia (i literally jump at every sound)... i cant think, i cant eat, i cant sleep, i can scarcely breathe - i freeze up.
i fight this, as best as i can... i have tried everything, from meditating as best as possible to shield myself and our house in white light. i try to send positivity and love their way. at the very least i strive to not allow the fear and/or anger to reside in my heart. but nothing seems to work, no matter how hard i try.

i dont understand why this is happening. david continuously states that if something happens its a spiritual wake up call to pay attention to a lesson you have to learn. well, ive been awake, and open to hearing/learning this message, praying for it be shown to me. i dont see it... and so logically ive tried to guess it. the only conclusion i have though is to learn how to love your neighbor and see them as equals, but this doesnt make sense. before this persecution began, i had no problem with this. its only since its been happening that i have faced the struggle. how do you love someone who assaults you on a daily basis?

im not even sure what to ask for here. theres only four solutions i can think of - a) we are provided with means to move (i do not do well in the heat at all, and there is no nature here, i cannot connect to mother earth here, and so this is one reason need to move anyways)... b) something happens in which the police take a more affirmative action in which these people take this seriously and stop. like issuing tickets even on first visit... c) if i were to wish, pray, hope they get evicted but that they are provided with an opportunity to live in a better location, is that considered negative karma still? and d) somehow someway, they have their own spiritual awakening and just stop.

i am sorry this is so lengthy, but its a desperate situation and its one that unless you experience, you cannot truly understand how bad it is. i sleep like the dead, ive slept through 5.0 earthquakes centered very close to where i live, without waking up. but this is so loud, it wakes me up in a flash.
i try to use headphones, but i am prone to headaches with extended wear... and even so when i do wear them, and play my music loud, i can still hear their music over it. the windows rattle at its loudest, but even on its lowest, you can still hear it in our house, and you can feel your eardrum throbbing.

my mother is potentially going on disability, her legs are very swollen and wont go down - this can lead to heart failure. she doesnt need this additional stress.

please pray for us, that this is resolved, and quickly!

[Rhonda]

blessing to you aqcheryl and your family. i feel for you. you are a true warrior in action. keep following your heart and my i suggest to actually "allow" the fear and/or anger to be absorbed by your loving heart rather than block it. let it go, let your higher heart take over., "surrender" these events and allow the will of god to answer.

seek for further actions as the days come, but know that thy heart is all loving, all powerful and can handle and restore harmony. your loving heart will protect you and cleanse the feelings that are present so that you can see your course clearly, as it unfolds.

as you surrender these feelings as they come, feel the peace that comes from this release of not being able to help or control the others that do not seek ours or your help..... much love....


i just cannot do this on my own, and its not for lack of trying the best i could.

when the music starts, im under spiritual attack... i feel it beating down on me, trying to break me. i am not someone who cries, but this... i have to continuously fight it. my emotions range from anger and aggression, to fear, hopelessness, despair, anxiety, stress, paranoia (i literally jump at every sound)... i cant think, i cant eat, i cant sleep, i can scarcely breathe - i freeze up.
i fight this, as best as i can... i have tried everything, from meditating as best as possible to shield myself and our house in white light. i try to send positivity and love their way. at the very least i strive to not allow the fear and/or anger to reside in my heart. but nothing seems to work, no matter how hard i try.

please pray for us, that this is resolved, and quickly!

[meganarline]

excellent advice rhonda.

aqcheryl,

it sounds like you are doing all the right things. it would drive me crazy going through what you are going through and there are only a couple of things i can think of - ask for divine intervention, pray to archangel michael or whoever you connect with and forgive those across the street who are tormenting you.

know that many of us are with you in heart and spirit.

love,

megan

[aqcheryl]

as you surrender these feelings as they come, feel the peace that comes from this release of not being able to help or control the others that do not seek ours or your help..... much love....

thank you for your response. that is a hard one, im not sure how to allow anger in my heart and not experience it?

im not trying to control them though... if they want to play their music i truly dont care as long as it doesnt assault us. essentially they are the ones exerting control over us, albeit in an indirect manner. so im not sure what you are saying at the last part... i may be misreading, its just it sounds like you are saying stop trying to control others... but im not the one doing that.

its not that its music in the background either... when they play it, its so loud that it not only shakes our walls, but physically you can feel your organs vibrating, and you feel ill.

[aqcheryl]

excellent advice rhonda.

aqcheryl,

it sounds like you are doing all the right things. it would drive me crazy going through what you are going through and there are only a couple of things i can think of - ask for divine intervention, pray to archangel michael or whoever you connect with and forgive those across the street who are tormenting you.

know that many of us are with you in heart and spirit.

love,

megan

im trying, i really am. thats what scares me, is that ive been asking - for two years now, ive been asking. and i just dont understand what im not learning, if this is some test.

when the music is playing, i fight the anger by doing that, by telling myself over and over that i forgive them and i send them love, and still... nothing. it just keeps happening, every day. so thats why im hoping if my asking is not enough, that others adding to it will help make it stronger. thank you for your words because they help me not feel alone.

[Berry Chastain]

aqcheryl

i have no suggestions for what is happening, but i will and do hold a sacred place in my heart for healing in this situation. my heart and spirit is with you as i have experienced brief experiences of similar occurances.
i hold you and yours close in my heart with a satisfactory solution to this problem.
much love and light surrounds you dear one
berry

[aqcheryl]

aqcheryl

i have no suggestions for what is happening, but i will and do hold a sacred place in my heart for healing in this situation. my heart and spirit is with you as i have experienced brief experiences of similar occurances.
i hold you and yours close in my heart with a satisfactory solution to this problem.
much love and light surrounds you dear one
berry

thank you very much. it started again today, and then escalated as someone came here, happened to park right in front of my house, and they had a racial altercation with my neighbors. my mother was at church, i called her and told her not to come home - she had the minister pray, and we did see that within the same time period this person left, was the same time he prayed over her.

that has made me feel alot better, to me it shows the power of intent. is it because im directly involved that it works for others? i do wish it had made things better in some regards, but as my mother returned home, they were not - she was forced to deal with lewd "catcalling". it seems that emotions are escalating the closer we get to 2012.

so im focusing my intent to reflect moving, its just not safe here anymore, and i prefer the path of peace. the only option to truly resolve this is to move, and so i would ask if anyone who does pray for our situation that that is the end result (as opposed to praying just the music will cease).

[Matthew Clark]

hi cheryl,

i did actually respond to you last night but the trouble was something was telling me not to send it - i dont know what or why but after a whole day on my lappy, i guess i was going a bit googly eyed and ended up waffling as i was shattered, so i deleted it! :)

sometimes in life my darling we all come across people who have problems, some bigger than others, but all big to the person experiencing them.

i know exactly what you are going through and i can pick up on your intense struggle to deal with this situation. 10 years ago myself and my partner were living in a ground floor flat. my ex, who happened to own the flat above, decided to rent it out to a bunch of teenagers who had just left home. talk about him getting revenge for me leaving him, albeit i only moved downstairs! :eek:

anyway i went to hell and back with these young guys and their loud music. they would get in at 2 am from clubbing and put the music on. it went on for months and i nearly had a breakdown as i could not sleep because i was constantly on my guard. you get so desperate that you will do anything to stop it. my solution? i bought a book on candles and (rather naively!) read that if i purchased a baby blue coloured candle, scratch the word silent on its body, burn it, the noise would stop :eek: well it didnt work - stupid book!

there is not much i can say to you my lovely that will make things better for you and your mum. what i can say, is you are in my thoughts, prayers and meditation (though i dont meditate much i have to say). i woke up this morning and one of my first thoughts were of you and your situation. its funny because it tears me apart to know my spiritual sister is going through this with what appears to be no end. are you learning lessons from this? probably. are things changing? no. is this situation going to change? perhaps. as i said, there is very little i advice i can offer particularly because i do not know the laws in the us. here in the uk, we have a system whereby the local council will set up sound monitors to record how loud the noise in question is. i know it has to get bad before they will set this up but the service is there. i have no idea whether you have anything like that over there?

look at the situation this way. you have been tested to the limit, you have risen above it the best way you know how. you have sent them love again and again. all of the time you are doing this, your spiritual self is getting stronger and stronger - ok you may feel by now you are the equivalent of a spiritual "miss universe" ;)

it never ceases to amaze me just how cruel and self centred people can be. it seems to be the norm and it is simply not right at all. i know this post will be of little use to you but just know, someone who is many thousands of miles away is thinking of you and your mum. david went through it when he lived right below a military runway.

i have read many of your posts and enjoyed what you have had to say. i am just so sad to know that you are going through this situation.

you are welcome to pm me anytime, i will always respond and give you as much "electronic" support as i can. for now i will leave you with a huge spitiual cuddle and say things will change for the better in time. the world is changing at an incredible speed and as david said in his last 2 posts, mankind is going to soon witness the greatest events in modern history. cling on to those words. for now stay strong and positive and know that there are people who care deeply - more than you know.

god bless my love. oh and in the uk we spell mom, "mum"!!

lots of love matt
xx

[Berry Chastain]

matt,
i would like to thank you for your response to cheryl's plea. your compassion is exemplary. i would like to add that carla rueckert who channelled the ra material was in constant exposure to negative "greetings". that is what she chose to call it rather that "negative attacts" for many years she overcame/transcended those negative affects on her physical and spiritual self through constant prayer and meditation, sending love to those entities which were the source of her affliction. to quote the title of a song "love is the answer".

cheryl, i continue to hold a sacred place in my heart for you and anticipate a solution to your challenge.
love, light, peace and joy surround you,
berry

[starborne]

i've been reading this post for a while now and wondering what to say. berry, and matt have both struck a chord with me in their responses, and have made me realise that i also know exactly what you, cheryl, are going through.

i'll start by saying that i have been holding you in my thoughts for over a week now, and trying to send as much loving energy your way as i can. a spiritual, energetic hug is in order here, may you feel some comfort in that thought. as a matter of fact, why don't we all join in a great big group hug for cheryl and her mom, and even her neighbors... after all they are still human and need love as much as the rest of us. :)

i do know exactly what it's like to have your private life indruded by noise pollution, and or light pollution. while living at home, my step father always keeps the tv on all night long and insists on keeping it quite loud even when he's sleeping. he also has a string of rope lights going down the hall along the top of the wall across from my room. the light of the rope lights came in along the top of my door, illuminating the whole cealing and in turn my room. the tv was also quite loud, so loud that i could hear it over the sound of a loud fan on high to drown out the noise.

this made sleeping quite impossible some nights, and i went many nights in a row without sleep. i've tried walking down the hall to turn down the tv, then he would wake up and turn it back up and then fall asleep. i've tried asking him as politely as i could, but he didn't remember and kept doing it.

there is something you should know about my step father, and that is that he had a major brain anyurism 9 years ago, so a large part of his higher reasoning has been knocked out by brain damage, and possible damage to the auditory centers in his brain. so that was the dilema for quite some time that kept me from taking any strong action.

maybe this doesn't seems like the same situation to you, as you have a very severe case of noise disturbance and it's effects are taking a toll on your overall health for both you and your mom. all i can say is hang in there, cause something will certainly change soon enough. i'm certainly holding the idea of serious change in my mind with as much energy as i can.

i've been trying out a visualisation at random times throughout the day that has the ability to center me in the midst of great stress. i don't always think of it in the very moment i feel upset, or trapped, or attacked in any way, and sometimes let the emotion carry me away. eventually i find humor in the situation and move on with it, but the visiualisation that is helping me is just this. it's a bit involved sounding, but actually much easier to try than you think.

i start by seeing the area around me and seeing myself outside of myself. i take that bubble of awareness and expand it out further and further until i can see the curvature of the earth. i eventually get far enough out that i have this bubble envelope the earth and become the earth. i enjoy myself as exsisting as the earth and become aware of the moon orbiting. i then quickly flip from being the earth to being the sun and "feeling" it's pieces/planets orbiting inside of it's atmosphere.

i perceive the solar system as myself, and feel the orbits as i see them... the feeling and sight are one sensation, each invoking the other. i see and feel this as a pressure and concentrate on this subtle pressure, like a wind at differing rates spinning around and inside of me. i briefly experience each and every celestial body as a distinct "feeling" when i see it in my mind's eye.

all the while i'm aware of my body sitting here on earth and become aware of my orientation on the planet and the ecliptic plane of the solar system, and rotation of the earth. i take notice of where north is and expand my awareness from there all over again by trying to "see" the whole solar system from my body's point of view. this is as far as i can take this using words... as words aren't making themselves known to me that can accuratly, fully describe this state of being. i'll try my best to send along the holographic intention to be invoked by these words.

now, as i said, this isn't as complex as it may seem, and it can be taken out even further than just the solar system and our star, but you can become the galaxy itself, or further still. it depends on how far you take yourself, and how quiet you can get your mind to allow yourself to see and feel this. this won't make your problems disappear, but it will let you feel something much greater than your current situation and open your mind and your heart with a much greater capacity to deal with stress.

try to see your lesson here to be learned, and try to see the humor. maybe i can show you a bit of that humor with this "runic riddle" i feel you will understand. (otherwise pm me for a translation... lol) ;) teiwaz is pointing upside down while hagalaz stands next to uruz, who is standing on her head. i find it somewhat amusing that the great disruption of hagalaz is flanked by the two signs of might and strength. they appear to be saying to embrace the disruptions, and make no attempt to stop it, for you will lose sight of it's importance. it is with this message that i do see a certain level of humor that i hope you take as just that.... humor... as well as an insightful thought!

for those of you who are confused by that little riddle, you can pm either me or cheryl for an explaination, thereby satisfying the requests of the mods' guidlines! ;)

hang in there sister... we're all here for you!

p.s.: i just thought you should know that i just got a single closing message from wunjo, who is sitting upright, with the message of light and peace. may the message shine clear for you. :d

many blessings of love and light,
jon

[TOTHE]

alex collier's native american inspirational prayer at the end of his presentation at the project camelot awake and aware conference in la on the weekend of the 19th.

great spirit, whose voice i hear in the land and whose breath of life to all in the world. hear me.
i am small and i am weak and i need the strength and your wisdom.
let me walk in beauty and let my eyes ever behold the rare and perfect sunsets that you have created, with me.
make my hands respect the things you have made and my ears sharp to hear your words and your voice.
let me learn the lessons you have hidden under every rock and leaf.
i seek strength not to be greater then my brother but to fight my greatest enemy, myself.
make me always ready to come to you with clean hands and straight eyes.
so that when my life fades as the fading sunset, my sprit can come to you without shame. amen

[aqcheryl]

matthew, berry, jon - your words have touched me in such a way i've never truly been on an emotional level. you see, all my life, ive always fallen into the role of the 'pillar' - the 'strong one'... there was always an answer to whatever problem that came up - an answer that was doable. if you are stressed or worried about something, then take the steps to resolve it and become informed - find your resolution.

this is the first time ive truly needed someone to be strong for me. granted ive had moments in the past, but i know they pale in comparison to what is happening now - those were brief passing moments that time healed, even if i was alone in healing it. for this, ive literally grown up as the 'last person there is to turn to' in our circle... and its a hard blow when i cant fix it. its even harder to ask for help because i cant fix it. this time, this is the first in which the only answers i could come up with - were not something i could just do, which is either move or become negative. i refuse to do that, i refuse to lower my energy out of anger and fear. that is why i will not make an arrest on this family, or take them to court, or even so simple as plug in my own stereo and play very loud music back at them. all of these, id been advised but that is not the path of positivity.

although my city has ordinances for noise pollution, the police can do very little. from what i have been told - first visit, they issue a warning. if they have to come back within a 24 hour period, then they issue a ticket - but they have to hear the music themselves. my neighbors play this up. so thats really what our law system does here - nothing.

the other things i had seen, when reading about this ongoing problem was the opposite end of the spectrum - in which the response was always, 'somethings wrong with you if you cant get over someones music', because 'they have a right to do what they want in their own home' which also leads to 'stop trying to control others'.

all of these things, coming from those who are ignorant of the horrors of what noise pollution does. ive read online many stories from people dealing with the same situation, but worse as they had children who this was also affecting.

your responses made me feel for once someone is strong for me, even if its just through online - but this strength allows me to in turn be strong for my mother and my sister. so i thank you for that, and i thank you so much for the positive energy sent our way.

jon, ive tried the visualizations as well, that is definitely something im familiar with - but i always need to be in a peaceful relaxed state to let myself free, and i do not get that when the music starts. quite the opposite - very tense, and cannot focus. i will pm you to discuss the runes, but here i will say the wunjo means alot because for the past few days l had been feeling unexplainable joy - so much positivity that i feel like maybe this time we can move.

when my stepfather passed away several years ago, my mother received 1/3 of what they made in a month prior to his passing - this escalated into alot of debt. even though my sister and i probably would have moved out in our early years as most kids do - it was just not feasible or affordable (and for me, when you couple that with a strong clan sense of mentality...) - so its the three of us here. two years ago, we tried to see if we could move, but we were told it wasnt possible due to credit. well ive been working on the family budget for this time, and although it doesnt feel like much has changed, i know some dents have been made.

so i bring this up because for the past week i have been aggressively searching information about anything i could find that may help us move. it started with wishful browsing of homes - homes that two years ago we never could have thought of having. two years ago, we were consigned to looking at another mobile home park. but now, with prices as they are, if we have made any changes, perhaps it could be a home this time - a dream all three of us have had.
in this period of time, researching, ive seen alot of things that seem to be synchronicity... not just including the housing market, but also coinciding with one of the major loans on my mothers credit being paid off fully this coming month.

obama has a tax relief for first time home buyers that you have to buy a home before the end of this year. where we would normally not qualify for fha i dont think - we qualify for calhfa (which is state version of fha). where in the past, it would have been a major struggle to move and pay more per month then we do, we now could pay several hundred more a month and not struggle.

where we cannot afford a home with hoa fees, and there is one home we found... that is in the middle of a hoa community - that has no hoa fees (my guess is because this one home the loan terms says either cash or fha loan). the address of this one home we are focusing on, has synchronicity... 19789 crestview. our address we are currently at is very similar as far as the numbers - the way they are laid out.

i have tried emailing three different realtors, and i hope one will answer - we have not come to this stage yet of speaking with one. we need prayers and positivity that we will find a realtor willing to help us - and help us soon, that we have fixed the overall family credit enough to qualify, and that we can be approved. i think this one home is a shortsale which means the original borrower is asking the lender to accept selling the home for less than what they owe, and that can take the bank quite some time to go through the process. and so for that we need positivity that in our case if we made it that far, it went through quickly.

i have had a strong intuition for the past several weeks that we are facing a december deadline... we need to get out of here. i have meditated and pushed the 'thought' away in thinking it was stemming from the fear and anxiety, but when i search within the answer is always this knowing is not coming from my fear.

heres a link to the house thats on the market, i hope the pictures help:
http://realestate.yahoo.com/california/canyon_country/19789-crestview-dr-148:de93c2c4d9eedbd43642158dacc3e2c;_ylt=akduzwl_c jccm1xclarkypdn47qs

but that even if we could not move to this one, if we are too late, that we find another one. i think a home in this type of community, the hoa monitors things like noise pollution. and although this one home shows hoa: n/a - in which we probably would not be a part of the hoa then - it still applies to our neighbors.

i realize that this information may be seen as to personal to share publicly, as there are risks involved having it online - but i feel that in order to focus intent, the information is needed, and the risks are far less than what my family and i are dealing with here.

tothe, the poem you shared really touched me so much. between the poem and everyone else's responses, i teared up. i thank you all for just even listening, much less sending support and healing and positivity. it has meant alot - and i pray this christmas my family and i are in a new home. these homes have fireplaces, by the by, and that has always been a dream for me... ive never had presents under the tree, or stockings on a fireplace, or even a white christmas(though staying in this city still wont have one lol). weve never been able to invite people for dinner or family meals, or much less in general - because where we are is so small. my grandmother doesnt visit us anymore because the people in this park make it a point to run in front of / or block anyone trying to visit us. and when someone does, they make it very unpleasant. its as if something is working very hard to isolate us and make us feel stranded and alone.

but a home... a real home, that is a dream, and healing. and this one home has trees which is very important to me. and now i think im waffling. (if that means the same here as it does in the uk) :)

[Matthew Clark]

dearest cheryl,

wow what a lovely kind reply.

the best advice, i feel, is always from the heart. i have always said i am glad i am not wealthy as i have seen what having money does to people and their principles. i sincerely mean it when i say that this is one of the few times i wish i had it, because if i did the house would be yours. looking at the picture of the house and feeling your wish to have it as your home, has made my heart open so wide and send to you all the purest emotion i am capable of feeling - love. i too hope you get it but if this one doesnt work out, another will.

i am deeply humbled at the kind messages of support people have sent to you on this forum, though i would not in reality expect anything less.

your open, honest and frank post about some intimate details of your lives are truly appreciated and may i say i am honoured that you have given that trust to us. you could be in no better company as everybody here are spiritual caring people who have other peoples concerns and troubles at heart. as i said in my reply, i cannot offer you any great advice but what i can give you is all of my love, compassion and caring support, as i know you would do the same for every one of us if we need help.

i am sorry but i do not understand hoa/fha or what it means but i suppose that is irrelevant as what will be will be "kay sura sura". ;)


for this, ive literally grown up as the 'last person there is to turn to' in our circle... and its a hard blow when i cant fix it.

welcome to the world of being human! sometimes in life my sweet we have to accept we need others, learning comes about in areas we may not like or even understand. accept it.


your responses made me feel for once someone is strong for me, even if its just through online - but this strength allows me to in turn be strong for my mother and my sister. so i thank you for that, and i thank you so much for the positive energy sent our way.

it doesnt matter of the source of someones kind words, as long as they are from the heart who really cares? :)


for the past few days l had been feeling unexplainable joy

me too now - of yours.

please stay positive and joyful as it looks like you have an interesting time ahead of you. i am sure you know we create our own reality so keep on creating yours, in love, spirituality and joy.

oh you mentioned synchronicity - the link you gave has my surname clark on! the house is as good as yours!! only in america - not one swimming pool but 2! :eek:

cheryl, my heart is sending you all the deepest purest love that it is capable of. i hope all of your dreams come true - my intuition is telling me that you deserve it as you already know.

god bless sweetheart and love to your mum and sister.

much love,

matt
xx

p.s waffling in the uk is an ancient art of making potatoes into square shapes which are edible. ;) yes it means the same here to!!

[aqcheryl]

hi matthew,
i believe you are right that if that one house doesnt pull through, another will. we just have to keep faith. i think i posted that one of the prayers/positive energy sent our way was to find a realtor even willing to work with us.
this morning, i found one. it is funny because i was browsing and wishin, and hopin, and thinkin and prayin ;)
and i saw a mansion like home for $2,800 sale price. so i wrote him going 'ok whats wrong with it'. he wrote back and said that listing was in the wrong place, its really the per month rental fees... and then asked if we were looking to buy, and if so, to send him what we are looking for.

well... for starters... the synchronicity... if i had not found his website, and thus not seen that one ad, i would not have written him.

granted, hes trying to help us, but in his estimation it doesnt look good, not for a home. but we dont want to move from one bad situation to another, so we do not want another mobile home. he is going to do some more research, and tell us tomorrow.

however theres a glimmer of hope. i was able to check their credit scores and they are much higher than what they were in the past. he said we are very very close to the numbers needed that we could actually think about a home.

this would mean waiting longer to build up the credit more, and regardless of the joy i have been feeling, the music has not stopped, and so its hard to comprehend waiting. as treebeard states "lets not be hasty", i do not want us to be so hasty we choose the quick option out (mobile home) rather than the smart way that could land us a real home.

as for the property i was looking at, it requires fha approval. fha is off the top of my head, i think, federal housing association - its a government program to help people who normally could not buy a house on their own. we need to be at a certain level as mentioned before, to qualify for that one.

hoa is home owners association fees - they are mainly responsible for monitoring the neighborhood as far as looks - its their land you are leasing. the community has two pools, the house does not have any. it would be lovely to have a house with a pool though, a private one. its the best form of exercise.

there is one more program out there, that may help us bypass all of this, and that is the va program - veterans assistance, another government program. my mother was in the navy prior to our births, and she qualifies... if the lender approves, they apparently have less restrictions on credit, provide lower interest rates, and there is no down payment.

i have only recently emailed rocky, our realtor (yo adrian! lol) with this information i found, as well as filling out a form for this one va mortgage lender to contact my mother. please send positivity that they tell her a big fat yes!


dearest cheryl,

wow what a lovely kind reply.

the best advice, i feel, is always from the heart. i have always said i am glad i am not wealthy as i have seen what having money does to people and their principles. i sincerely mean it when i say that this is one of the few times i wish i had it, because if i did the house would be yours. looking at the picture of the house and feeling your wish to have it as your home, has made my heart open so wide and send to you all the purest emotion i am capable of feeling - love. i too hope you get it but if this one doesnt work out, another will.

[Matthew Clark]

hi,

thanks for the explanation of those alphabet agencies!!

positivity on its way >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> catch. ;)

keep us informed of the progress!

matt.
xx

[aqcheryl]

i think i should point some things out now that some time has passed, because there is nothing quite like the power of positivity -then recognized positivity...
since posting asking for assistance, there has been a large drop in the amount of 'instances' the music is playing. granted, i do understand it could also coincide with the drop in the temperature here as we are heading into fall, but i still know that all the prayers and positivity have helped!

i have an update on both things, the music, and the house.
the first is that i just found out two days ago that back in july, our city had proposed an amendment to the noise ordinance that would allow our deputies to better enforce the law. instead of being limited to verbal warnings, they can now issue citations and make it a criminal offense.
our city's sheriff department has a website and a section where you can ask one of the deputies a question - i inquired about this and was told it was passed and just this last week they began implementing the new system and handing out citations!

this is a huge step, though due to everyones positive energies there has been no need to call the police for over a week now. i feel better though that when the time comes, theres more that can be done. we still need positive prayers and energy however, because theres a huge loophole in this - they can only issue the citations if they hear it, and as previously mentioned my neighbors are very careful about watching out for the police, etc. over 95% of the time - that im aware of - by the time the police did/do arrive, its over an hour later and sometimes enough has passed the people have ended their 'party'. granted it never happening again is better energy to be asked for, but also that if the police do need to be called, that we are granted that they come in a timely manner and hear it.

on the other hand, however - we are all still on the 'move' hunt. we are compiling information for the preliminary application for the home assistance program our city provides (lottery, we have at most a 1:65 chance). my mother is a veteran and so we are working with a veteran mortgage company who are trying to help her get where she needs to be so that they can approve her. i can only see this as more positivity, ive never heard of a lender trying to help someone get approved - though that is admittedly based on my knowledge which is limited in this area. we still need positive energy that we get chosen for the city lottery and that we can get prequalified by the deadline required and that we find a home once this is done - as this is an issue presented... they require we find a home within city limits thats younger than 1978... and there are not many at all in general let alone trying to find one that fits our needs that we can afford - thats on the market.

and i have to add that ever since my initial post(s) here in this thread, things have fallen into place - we found an agent, who directed us to the program, we found a lender who is working with us, its all sliding into place, and while this is all happening i keep seeing synchronistic numbers.... its usually things like 444422 or 666966 or even the time, 2:24 things like that. outside of seeing 9:11 on occasion before this, ive never seen this much ever and i think its in relation to the house because thats all i have been focused on and thinking about since starting this journey! it has to be a positive sign :)

so i wanted to say thank you for the positive energy that has been sent, and until we are officially out of this place we still need it, and that to me this is proof beyond doubt what david has been telling us all along about how connected we all are and can help each other! i send positive energy to every post i read here in return, may we all be blessed.

[transiten]

hello aqhceryl!

i read your post before going away some weeks ago and i'm happy to see things have ameliorated for you and your mom:) i'm a singer and musiscian myself and i can hardly imagine the horror you've had gone through. one thing i've been wondering about is how the other neighbours have reacted and acted, i mean thy must have been disturbed also.

i'm happy to live in a block in gothenburg sweden where pple even get worried when you go away for some time and don't tell them, and you just have to call the "landlord" the company that own the houses and pple will evicted after some warnings if the let their cats and dogs poo in the yard or disturb the other tenants.

all the best from transiten

[Ejouk]

i've tried everything, only deep meditation works and sleep works, i can't live like this. i want to be at ease, but a part of me says that this is to force me to prepare myself, that it is a gift. i see it as hell. but that's how most of my life has been. hell followed by intense periods of clarity. it's like my mind is following it's own cycles of war and peace to grow. each battle greater than before, each clarity broader.

can anyone offer any insight as to what is going on? i'm going to the doctor to get an mri, painkillers do nothing. what's wrong is these headaches, an intense pressure where my pineal gland is. it's like my head wants to explode. i'm starting to think it's growing pains similar to those experienced during puberty but of a spiritual level. i just want some help, some other people's opinions. i can feel the fluid from time to time, and when in deep meditation can feel the fluids shifting and releasing pressure.

please, anything, prayers, it's just nonstop pain and only getting worse these past few days.

[Kinawe]

hi ejouk,

narrowing down what would cause you such physical pain with a test such as an mri is probably a good idea. i am not sure if there may be more medical tests that could be performed to help uncover the mystery of where your pain originates, but keeping an open line of communication with your doctor(s) may help lead you to defining, and hopefully resolving the issue(s).

i would not know if what you are experiencing is related to spiritual/psychic growth. maybe it would be helpful for you to seek out a community member - whom you trust, that could help you while you work to understand what is happening to you.

you are in my prayers.

[Matthew Clark]

hi,

sorry to hear you are experiencing this amount of pain.

prayers and thoughts are on the way to you.

maybe get the results of the scan and take it from there. have you considered a more natural approach? homeopathy is an avenue you could explore. there are some amazing cures out there using these natural medicines. if it is your pineal gland (the scan should tell) then i would urge you to go down this route, it will certainly do you no harm and could potentially sort you out. if not then consider accupuncture as this has had great results with many different ailments.

sorry its not much but at least you know folk care and are sending you positive thoughts.

hope you get to the bottom of it as soon as possible.

matt

[Ejouk]

i truly appreciate it matt and kinawe for the responses.

[aqcheryl]

hello aqhceryl!

i read your post before going away some weeks ago and i'm happy to see things have ameliorated for you and your mom:) i'm a singer and musiscian myself and i can hardly imagine the horror you've had gone through. one thing i've been wondering about is how the other neighbours have reacted and acted, i mean thy must have been disturbed also.

i'm happy to live in a block in gothenburg sweden where pple even get worried when you go away for some time and don't tell them, and you just have to call the "landlord" the company that own the houses and pple will evicted after some warnings if the let their cats and dogs poo in the yard or disturb the other tenants.

all the best from transiten

hi transiten,
things are alot better now, though we are far from out of the woods still, but theres been a slow down of it that has allowed peace to come in. the answer to your question about the other neighbors reactions are simply... they are all from the same cultural background - all of them. so they all play the music (though one is always the worst). they all gather around after work and drink beer and they all have parties - together. they are a community, but they are a community that is racist towards anyone not from their cultural background... like us. where we live its only 40 homes, and i would say that including ours, theres probably only 5 that are not of the same ethnicity, though the others live on the other side of the park and not next to the ones who are the worst... so other neighbors reactions are basically to join in, they dont complain about the music.

i just posted another prayer request specific to my mother as shes being admitted to the hospital, and in it - when its posted, you can see theres more information we found out about where we live, as its something shes been stressing on.

unfortunately in america, the class system is the less wealthy you are, the less help you receive from officials. everyone tends to be so separated and individualistic and uncaring about others unless money talks - this is why america is so far behind the rest of the world. i have never been so less alone then when i found this forum!

[aqcheryl]

i truly appreciate it matt and kinawe for the responses.

ejouk,

in watching alot of davids videos and reading his materials, i instantly recognized what you are describing. i remember this being mentioned, and it really does sound to me that its related on a spiritual level for you because spirituality is whats easing your pain.

granted, it might also be physical as well so of course continue to have that checked out... but heres what i do recall of the spiritual side.

i remember that the mention of headaches is that they happen because you are blocked on a spiritual level. you are just not getting something, and so you need to open your mind further to receive information. is there anything perhaps you are still skeptical about, that keeps presenting itself to you? perhaps be more open to it.

perhaps that own skepticism is belief in yourself and your own powers? the fact that your pineal is overacting not only signifies you are connecting to the higher areas, but imagine the energy it is creating. you said the headaches stem from the pineal, correct?

if you dont believe you can do something, then you are holding this energy inside yourself, and its just building up to release. meditation works a little to ease, because you are opening your mind to receive.

so i suggest you meditate as often as you can and just prior to it, ask your spiritual guides for help in pinpointing what the issue is, or where you need to focus your energies at.

remember you also can heal yourself, by believing it is so, intend it to be so.

many blessings

[daddyroo45]

of late i have been burdened with the sense that david wilcock is suffering sleep loss and a potential thyroid problem. i do hope that these feelings are false. we should all send healing thoughts and prayers for david just in case.

[Ejouk]

@aqcheryl

things are better now, tried some light herbal tea treatments to ease the pain, along with much sleep, seemed to increase the activity of the pineal gland, and headaches go away. i don't think i'm the only one going through this though, i've talked with others and they note a definite change in consciousness all in people they never expected, people waking up from their sleepy state of mind and becoming aware. for me, it's something more profound, yet painful at times if i ignore it.

[transiten]

of late i have been burdened with the sense that david wilcock is suffering sleep loss and a potential thyroid problem. i do hope that these feelings are false. we should all send healing thoughts and prayers for david just in case.

this is some synchronicity! i've been focusing on the calcification of the pineal gland and just the other day i was diagnosed with an overactive thyroid gland by an alternative therapist. i just started the treatment and i'm glad i didn't go to a traditional doctor.

if your premonition is correct daddyroo45, david or anyone else who want to know what the therapist gave me just send me a pm.

transiten

[aqcheryl]

@aqcheryl

things are better now, tried some light herbal tea treatments to ease the pain, along with much sleep, seemed to increase the activity of the pineal gland, and headaches go away. i don't think i'm the only one going through this though, i've talked with others and they note a definite change in consciousness all in people they never expected, people waking up from their sleepy state of mind and becoming aware. for me, it's something more profound, yet painful at times if i ignore it.

i think thats the biggest sign there, dont ignore it.

you know, we are all so used to being in full control of our lives, but we are all going to have to realize that no matter what we are doing in the physical realm, when spiritual comes knocking we have to stop what we are doing.

ive heard of this in the past, where if you ignore it, eventually it finds its way to slapping you up the head - but now as things are progressing, so is the ferocity of that slap.

[chillhour101]

he attracted you!!! perhaps he can find that place again.

[Katarina57]

my brother is a big bear of a man who understand the true nature of love. in spite of serious addictions and debilitating illness..he gives to all around him, often denying himself. his health has deteriorated greatly in the last five years and is living in an environment not conducive to peace & healing,(it is what he can afford) and his current doctors did not address his illness other than throwing more and more pharmaceuticals his way.for a while there has been the feeling that he just gave up and did not want to be here anymore, his complaints rarely about his illness, but more about being tired of being here on earth and the suffering he sees around him.he has recently found a new spark in life, wanting to take better charge of his life and health. he feels he has work here on earth to do. he has found new doctors and is looking to move out of his current living situation and closer to family. i ask for prayers and meditations of strength , peace..and wellness..and that the right living situation present itself so he can find comfort in his struggle to regain his life

love light & peace to all
kat

[Berry Chastain]

again my dear life mate and partner, ray, is afflicted with another serious illness, something totally unexpected and which appeared within a few hours.

he has been having some difficulty with bronchitis which is a yearly occurance with him, but after three weeks of treating it this time it still was not abating. he had a chest cat scan tuesday and friday saw the doctor the a review of the results which for the most part were very good, only the congestion in the lower lungs from the bronchitis and no spots or tumors at all. a short time after the appointment he began having excruciating pains in his belly and lower chest and experiencing forceful vomiting and nausea. he called the doctor who prescribed a medicine to relive the nausea and vomiting which did no good. the doctor also said if it continues to go to the emergency room at the hospital.

when i got home at 4 o:clock he was in a very bad state and i immediately took him to the er. after five hours and many tests they diagnosed acute panchreatitis. he was admitted to the hospital and will be there for treatment until at least monday, probably longer.he is so weakened by this and discouraged with another serious health problem he is loosing hope.

please all of you, use whatever prayers, intentions and healing modalities you have to send divine healing energy to ray.he wants to be well but he is having difficulties getting through the pain this involves. infinite gratitude goes to all of you.
in the love and light of our one infinite creator,
berry

[Rhonda]

berry and ray, i am sorry to hear the challenges that you working through. remain strong. my heart felt love and rays of rainbow light is streaming. may ray, rest and leave the worries to his care givers and the divine beings that surround both of you at this time.

blessings and complete healing.

[Berry Chastain]

thank you rhonda for your loving blessings. this morning they put ray into icu with respiratory problems, and this afternoon, they find he is experiencing renal weakness and high potassium levels. he is receiving around the clock care but this does not ease my concerns. i am doing what i must to keep a positive affirmative attitude with this but it is difficult when someone who is so beloved is involved. i went through this a year ago but this time is more difficult.

hold both of us in your prayers and high intentions for divine healing and peace.

[Berry Chastain]

you have no idea how much i appreciate all of your concern and prayers. i have certainly been in a divided state of mind the last 24 hours. i swing between discouragement and hope each moment. my mind begins to be concerned about final arrangements etc and then in anger i put those thoughts away and see ray regaining his health and having more years for us to enjoy each other.

i think that i must find a balance though. the possibility that he will pass over is high and that requires my attention to things if that is the outcome. on the other hand, i must, even while considering those things keep my desire and intention and prayers on his healing. i have so many loving people along with you all lifting him up in prayer and the hand of the creator is all powerful to provide healing miracles if that is the proper end results. if ray has in his spirit chosen this time to pass over then nothing we can do will change that. it is his free will to end his physical life here and move on to a higher realm. i of all people should realize that. it is a certain natural selfishness in me that wants him to stay with me. i face for the first time the loss of someone who is so loved and a part of myself and though others in my family have died, i took the passing in the higher regard, that they were only moving on. with ray, i have a deeper emotional and psychological investment and this is more painful than any of those other losses.

as i said, i must seek balance in this thing. it is the trial which will prove my oneness with all that is, realizing that even if he does pass, he and i and everyone/thing are one with all that is and there is no separation.

last night, i received a call from one of the doctors who treated him before during his last massive blood clot. dr. powell is a loving and wonderful doctor and she offered me her deepest compassion and sympathy while she spoke with me. she told me though that ray is bleeding from one of the veins in the pancreas and that they had to do some sort of x ray which required the infusion of a particular dye in order to determine where that bleeding was occuring. this in turn is going to cause further problems with his kidneys. i was also told that he was requiring blood transfusions.

needless to say this did not help my state of mind. i and the dogs and cat managed to get some rest last night none the less.

i will keep you updated. he is still under heavy sedation today and the nurse told me this morning that he has not improved but it has not gotten worse either, which is some ray of hope.

love and light to all of you with sincerest appreciation.
berry

[Oryad]

hi dear
i wish you love beyond all understanding
and wish to warmly recommend a very helpful technique called
ho' oponopono
search youtube for dr, hew len interview, you will find there an amazing stuff to heal with.
love
orya

[Rhonda]

i still hold a bright shinning light for you and ray. continue to be be real and allow the power of hope and faith to feed your love in these moments. may the christ blue light surround both of you and all those that fill this circle of love and movement.

blessings and deep healing, berry

[Happystrings]

as i said, i must seek balance in this thing. it is the trial which will prove my oneness with all that is, realizing that even if he does pass, he and i and everyone/thing are one with all that is and there is no separation.

easily said, very difficult to live. my thoughts and prayers are with you dear brother.

[starborne]

berry, you have my undivided attention in placing the intention for healing energy to flow through ray and yourself. ;) may you both find peaceful, loving energy surrounding you, easing your pains, comforting you with a warm, glowing white light. you are like sponges, submerged in liquid light as you let the energy flow through you freely. taking with it, all toxins, negative energy, of any kind.

so may it be, and so it is.

love and light,

jon

[Berry Chastain]

ray transitioned at 8:15 this evening, tuesday april 20 2010.

the doctors told me to day that the life support that he was on was only prolonging the enevitible and that he had only a very slim chance of recovery and then no promise of quality life afterward. he and i had already decided that he nor i desired to be kept alive under these circumstances. after talking with his sister, we decided it was best to remove the support and let him pass peacefully without all of the discomfort. he released his spirit from the body within 45 minutes and seemed to be at peace at the last.

i had some very dear friends with me who were there at that moment and we had a prayer circle at the very moment of passing which greatly lifted my spirit and i am sure eased his passage into the higher realms.

it is a strange thing. i have been reading the life story of edgar cayce. the last passage which i read before going into the icu was this quote from the psalms, which when i read it caused me to come to tears for its exactitude and prophetic content.

"god is our refuge and our strength, a very present help in times of trouble.

therefore will we not fear, though the earth be removed, and though the moutains be carried into the middle of the sea;

though the waters thereof roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with the swelling thereof. selah.

there is a river, the streams whereof shall make glad the city of god..."

i have often read recently, in various channeled messages, that many will choose to pass on in preparation for the upheavals accompanying these times. the scripture above is certainly suited for the times of trouble we are witnessing these days.

i am at this time working through the natural grief of loss of a very beloved loved one. but i know that he is only as far away from me as a thought or a whisper which gives me abundant comfort.

thank you all for your comforting thoughts, prayers, meditations and healing intentions.

love and light in the name of our one infinite creator,

berry

[MarkM]

god bless you and ray, berry, and i feel strangely only privileged to say that your profoundly brave and accepting stance will gain you and the rest of us lovers the best of ray's example and ongoing promise of love continuing unabated. your dear loving friend, mark

[Happystrings]

let not your heart be troubled; you believe in god, believe also in me. in my father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, i would have told you. i go to prepare a place for you. and if i go and prepare a place for you, i will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where i am, there you may be also. and whither i go you know, and the way you know. john14:1-4

again, prayers and sympathy to you dear brother.

happystrings

[meganarline]

berry,

i'm so sorry for your loss. my heart goes out to you. ray is truly blessed to have had a partner so loving as yourself. as you both have been blessed to have each other. my thoughts are with you both. know that ray is now in a wonderful world of light and love free from pain and will always be in your heart.

with love,

megan

[clairead]

dear berry,
may you and your beloved be upheld by loving friends everywhere in love and light at this time. you are in our thoughts and prayer, beautiful brave soul. thank you for sharing yourself with us.'may the lord give you peace'
kelly

[Berry Chastain]

i am blessed indeed to have so many dear loving souls sending love-light and bright thoughts to me in this time. i can assure you every bit of it is surrounding me with uplifting faith and energy to keep on with what is necessary at this time. i have also been surrounded by loving friends here who are ever offering any assistance or companionship while i work through this great change in my life.

it is without question a great change to loose that one who is closest to you and on whom you are trusting as a help-mate in life. i suddenly find myself having to change so many mundane routines of which i confess, i took for granted sometimes when he was doing his part. this will eventually become natural though it is going to take some effort to mold into the change. my biggest challenge will be taking care of the two dogs and the cat who are used to having 24 hours of attention with ray being here all day. i must continue to do my nine to five.

last night, when i got home and began to relax, i began talking to ray as if he where physically sitting with me. i told him how much love i had for him and how already i was missing his closeness but then told him that i realize he is no further from me than he ever was, if not closer. i told him that now, he was beginning to understand all of the things which i had discussed with him about the other side, the higher realms and that now it was going to be more real to him than it is to me as i only have it from second hand reports.

i had a couple of conversations with him, and i am sure his spirit was hearing my words and feeling the love that was flowing out with them. i had an amazing sense of peace and comfort when finally i chose to go to bed. i think that the two dogs and cats were aware of the presence in the room as when it began, harvey let out a very unusual bark, as if to say "there is something strange going on." he was aware of the energy present. heidi the little one simply watched me intently from the hassock she was lying on at my feet, i think realizing that we were not alone.

ray's niece and nephew were with me when i went to the funeral home this morning in to make final arrangements and that was a synchronistic blessing too.

thank you all again for creating such a magnificent shelter of love/light for us during this time. i am ever grateful.
l&l
berry

[Rhonda]

his beauiful soul will carry on and his light, wisdom and strength will live on through you and all the others that he touched. berry, i am truly very sorry to hear of his transition. you both walked with grace and courage during the days. blessing to you and "let the freedom of flight" be with ray as his own soul journey continues and lives forever.

until you two meet again. peace within heart.

[aqcheryl]

berry i am so sorry. there are never words for the heart, i could speak to the logical mind, but the heart will still know no less grief.

we are with you, and so is ray, he is there and always will be, and you can call to him and he will hear.

[aqcheryl]

after reading what berry is going through, i feel awkward for asking for help on something that just seems so trivial in comparison.

the events i wrote several months ago about my neighbors, are happening all over again. the drugs, parties, total disregard for the law and the biggest thing, the music. the last time i wrote i was very stressed, and in a very deep place, and i dont want to go there again. im fighting it, but rather than wait and risk that occurring again, im asking for prayers and positive energy again.

since the last time i asked, many wonderful people responded with positivity and i felt peace sent and responses came in unlikely places. the landlord sent out a letter. my mothers church started praying hard about this. it died down for a few months, and we were feeling better and safer.

we are still focused on moving, i have been working hard to repair family credit and finances so we could be approved to move but it doesnt look like we can until fall, soonest.

and as i mentioned, everything is picking up again - bad. revolving mainly around this one family - their 15 year old son, i found out his name is adan. hes the one responsible.. he has waist high subwoofers (if this is the right word) that he plugs into their cars. he and his friends group around the car and its like first row seats at a concert in front of the speakers, its that bad, and that loud. he will play it for about ten minutes, then turn it down for another ten, then back up... all day, for hours... so its very hard for the cops to witness it whenever they do finally get here which is hours after a call is placed.

many times i try to put this in perspective, and be thankful i have a roof over my head, and keep chanting we are moving, we are moving, we are moving. but this is seriously affecting our health. my mother is stressed out from this, and from worrying about me ontop of it.

my mother has severe lymphedema. if you look it up on wikipedia, at the bottom are four pictures of a womans legs showing before treatment, and the last two after. my mothers legs at their worst look as big as the after treatment pics of this woman. its caused by water leakage that eventually hardens, and it makes you look like you are large due to fat.

she recently had a stroke brought on by some vein in her neck leaking fluid, and she is only recently back from the hospital for that. she also has been feeling a tightness in her jaw, it hurts to open it.

we are not sure if she has angina - the doctors keep saying she has diabetes and they always look at her heart and kidneys but we never get a straight answer. the last we heard they believe that one side of her heart is slightly larger than the other.

and the stress from this pounding music is making it bad. because of this, because its affecting our health, i have to re-ask because i am scared honestly.

so i would ask for our families physical health, our stress, to feel peace instead of fear, that the music issues stop (at least until we move), that nothing impedes us from being able to move, and that the neighbors stop being so concerned with 'us'. (i constantly see adans father hanging around outside - they are directly across from us - talking with his friends and almost always hes vehemently talking about us, i can tell because he points, gestures, and his audience looks over at our place directly; and at what point does speech become action) so i ask also for them to stop being so 'concerned' with us.

[Deambor]

berry, please accept my deepest condolences. i'm sorry for your loss.
please keep your mind open. i believe you'll have a chance to either see or otherwise perceive ray's energy.

deep peace and love to you

deambor

[Berry Chastain]

each day is another challenge and at the same time a new experience. ray is ever present! how often during the day, do i wonder what's next, and the subtle thought comes to me, "here is the answer". i thrill each time i get that knowing that he is indeed right beside me, and continuing to offer love and support in my blind fumbling to travel through this change.

he particularly is giving me guidance in how to comfort the dogs. i am not a "dog person". he was, i am the cat person. they miss him incredibly and every time i come home they search to see if he has arrived with me. it breaks my heart sometimes. so i am offering more love and attention to them than i ever have. the problem, starting today, is that i must go to work. i cannot leave them in the house for up to 10 hours unattended. so.....i put both harvey and heidi outside this morning when i left for work at 6:30. i came home early today so i could shorten their day today but i can't do that all the time.

they are not happy campers. on the other hand, i kept the cat in and she was not happy either. i nearly got sneared at and hissed at when i got home and finally let her out! oh my what is a parent to do with his unruly children???

the other change i am having to deal with is rather minor but a big change for me. i, three days a week, leave the house very early to go to the gym and workout. i can't do that anymore. i dare not leave so early as i was used to in order to make sure the dogs and cats have their food and comfort and get them outside before i leave. fortunately i have some weight equipment here and this morning i did my workout here instead of going to the gym..what does that do, it means that i have separated myself from the fellowship i have with some very dear friends at the gym. we will continue to keep in touch but i have lost a source of social interaction which was uniquely my own.

so unexpected changes are ongoing. i am up to it and i know that during this time of global change we cannot expect that things will remain the same.

i am hearing of an unbelievable number of stories just like mine of unexpected illnesses and transitions out of this world. i am not surprised as i have been receiving channeled messages from sources which have said that those who were not prepared for the coming changes and ascension would choose to exit and return after the shift.

why am i not more devastated? because i know that this physical life is only a temporary experience in the human body and that we are indeed spiritual beings who have chosen this physicality for a time to grow spiritually. do i grieve ray's absence? absolutely. do i find myself incapacitated because he is not here physically? no, no, no! he is only as far away as a whisper, a thought, a dream. he has already been with me in dream time twice! what a wonder. i am delighted and overwhelmed when i am experiencing this cross over to his side of the spectrum.

,,,,,,,,,,

i just heard from my brother and his lover who are planning to be with me in two weeks. i now can plan the wake i have intended to celebrate ray's transition. i am so excited about getting our friends together to remember all of the good time we have shared and let ray know that we are here to cheer him on with love and affection.

with that i say, om shanti, shanti, shanti

l&l

berry

[Berry Chastain]

i must offer this quote from the autobiography of a yogi, by paramhansa yogananda.

"i realized anew that god wants his children to love everything as a part of him, and not to feel delusively that death ends all. the ignorant man sees only the unsurmountable wall of death, hiding, seemingly forever, his cherished friends. but the man of unattachment, he who loves others as expressions of the lord, understands that at death the dear ones have only returned for a breathing space of joy in him."

om shanti shanti shanti,

thank you all of you dear friends for helping me understand what yogananda was teaching.
l&l
berry

[TOTHE]

the divine name and it's use for healing:

missing vowels in the kabbalah for 2,600 years to intone the tetragrmmaton, yhvh, means we cannot say the name. no wonder our prayers sometimes do not get answered. jonathan goldman got a message in 2008 : "it is time to revive my name, lest it be forgotten". goldman has been working for years on sound healing and has found that it is not the frequency of the sound that creates the healing; it is also the intention of the person making the sound. frequency + intent = healing. why is this possible? is it locked in our dna or could it be the placement of the pineal gland over the larynx? is the human brain a biological quantum computer? is the human heart our second brain because it is composed of 65% neurological tissue...is that why that chakra can only resonate with love before i can get my appellation to work?
has it worked for me, yes. it cured a irritated seborrheic kerotosis ( that even bled sometimes) that i had for months..the primary care physician at the va even told me to get an appointment with the dermatologist to have a look at it. naturally i put it off with the intention to go on for another month. one day after intoning the vowels of the yhvh during meditation the keratosis disappeard to a pink spot. all i did was to tone the chakras by resonating with their specific vowel from crown to root and back to crown in one breath the yhvh. to work this the heart chakra has to be in the love state. you will find that in the name what was a miracle is now a technology for you to use.

[moderator: useful writers for tothe-some names edited out-not on recommended reading list]

gregg braden
rick strassman, m.d.
graham hancock
david wilcock (the e-books)

[Foghorn]

berry: be gentle with yourself in your time of grief. allow yourself as much time as you need and slow down with the many things you do. this is time for the universe and your friends and family to support you in your time of need.

i offer my understanding, compassion, love and support as you will never get over your loss and don't try to as it doesn't work that way. you must go through it as each wave of memory reduces your strength from time to time. sorrow will transcend to happiness one day, and each memory will be a blessing in your time, and only in your time.


he particularly is giving me guidance in how to comfort the dogs. i am not a "dog person".

just a thought...pick up some fresh beef shin bones (not the joint area) and ask the butcher to cut them 4 to 5 inches long - or 3 inches if they are small dogs. roast them in the oven around 45 minutes, 350 degrees. freeze the extra ones. give them 2 for outside use to start when you leave for work.

for inside use, boil them after roasting; save the stock. after they clean the bones white and no fat remains to soil the floor, save the bones and stuff them in the center with peanut butter - or soft cheese. either make your own by adding cream cheese and blend with hard cheese, or buy wispride cheddar in a crock/tub.

they'll be happy. anytime you find bones where you don't want them, pick them up and toss in a basket out of sight. eventually, you will notice, the dogs will do the same thing and go to the basket and select one when they want it - take it back and pick another.

throw any bones out when they start getting thin on the ends, and go see your friendly butcher for the next batch. of course you can roast them with vegetables and herbs if you choose....and boil them with the bones for stock.

i had the love of a 60 pound lady for 15 years who wore a fur coat year round and kept baskets of bones in house, vehicle and boat. it was a hoot to watch her take them back to her baskets to select another. another thought, make a nest of ray's underwear for them, or jacket - or leave a pile of clothes in a corner and let them handle it (don't use clothing that has been dry cleaned)...especially if you can pull the bands out of hats for them and add it to their beds.

may ray's memory be a blessing.

[Berry Chastain]

fog horn,
thank you for the wonderful suggestions. all are very apropo and especially the ideas to make the dogs more comfortable. you said "sorrow will transcend to happiness one day" and that statement is a very great comfort by itself. thank you so very much for your love and compassion,
berry

[transiten]

berry

i just arrived home after being away for some time.....so many comforting words already have been said....i also lost my stepsister who died from lungcancer some months ago....actually i've been thinking the way you do concerning the new understanding someone who has not been in tune with the "beliefs" we hold here, will finally get as they pass over....

my thoughts are with you

transiten

[Starfire]

i would like to request that we all send healing light and love to our great mother earth and all her creations upon and within, in reference to the oil leeking in the gulf of mexico. i am working on practicing forgiveness and non-judgement in all aspects of my life, and this incident teaches me how far you have to extend it. we can exert our power of the light and get this corrected, this is not what we want to see happening.
we must ask mother earth to forgive, as we are one, we are responsible to her.

starfire

[aqcheryl]

i wanted to update on my moms health, she suspected she had a hernia forming in her abdomen - shes had them before and its said that once you have them you can easily get them again.
she also suspected a hiatal hernia but she saw her doctor today and they did the endoscopy (rw?) and confirmed both. the one near the abdomen, the tissue is not healing from her last surgery a year ago from another hernia.

they did a biopsy on both and we are waiting to hear the results, a hiatal hernia is dangerous to get to and hopefully it is something she can avoid surgery. im trying to instill belief in her that she has the power to heal as well. but its just been non-stop doctors visits for months now and its scary.

[transiten]

aqcheryl

my thoughts go to you and your mother also, these are trying times for us all it seems, i'm having some emotional/psychological issues concerning codependency with my father at the moment...

transiten

[EarthAngelKimberly]

so recently i have had a flood of information racing through my body with this idea that we can heal the problem we have caused in the gulf simply through the power of intention. which of course is energy, and directed in mass amounts it can move mountains.

so if we can heal each other with intention which has been proven through studies on prayer, hands on healing and other research, why can't we heal our home, our mother... earth.??

think about it...

we have been getting messages about this for a long time... david wilcock researches these crop circles which most happen to depict frequency, waves, vibration, just to name a few things.

if we can get enough people in the same mindful intention of healing the earth, by any means that may be, then i think that we can literally cause a shift in the earths crust to close this wound which is bleeding profusely in the gulf killing life, our home and our mother.

once we get people out of blame mode, then we can shift the vibration of the world to one that can cause shifts to the world around us. which in theory could change the planet and heal the earth.

first we have to see that we are the cause of this, not just bp or the government (a scapegoat we've employed in order to relinquish all responsibilities). we need to take responsibility for our actions that have led us to this moment. everything in life is a lesson and this one is no less of one only this affects us all... on a global scale. this is our home.

we can be the solution...

people are concerned with works and bills and whose to blame, none of which matters if we kill our host, our mother which gives our physical bodies life.

the signs and messages have pointed me here and in my soul i know we can fix this which we have created. it is our only chance, other than waiting on the government to build this well which is hopefully going to stop the gushing of oil (blood), but it is estimated to be finished around august, nearly two months away!!!.

so we are supposed to sit around waiting...

if every human being on this earth put in 10 min of their time to do something as simple as planting a seed to give thanks to the earth for taking taking, and taking. we can take time to put our hands on her and heal our mother from anywhere in the world, say a pray, light a candle, change your way of thinking, stop directing energy into everything but what really matters at this moment.... healing our mother earth....

if we each spread the word then that will generate healing energy, if we write it down then that will generate more energy, and when people read about what other people are doing to heal the earth then that will reinforce that energy creating a pool of healing energy directed to the same purpose, of healing our mother.
i believe that this will work.

[meganarline]

if we can get enough people in the same mindful intention of healing the earth, by any means that may be, then i think that we can literally cause a shift in the earths crust to close this wound which is bleeding profusely in the gulf killing life, our home and our mother.

i'm with you on that for sure! there are a lot of groups out there that i have come across on facebook that are doing just that, sending healing love and thoughts to the gulf and to our mother earth.

this is the time to act. i know i was feeling extremely frustrated for a little while there because it seemed like people just wanted to ignore the whole situation and i felt that i had to do something.

here is a wonderful message from masaru emoto with his thoughts on the oil spill.

http://www.masaru-emoto.net/english/dr.emotos_message_2.html

please know earthangelkimberley that i am with you in this as i hope are many others.

love,

megan

[Amber]

dear dc community,
my prayers go out to all of you who suffer or have loved ones in pain.
at this time of the approaching solar eclipse, our meditations can help the grid transformation and our own energies. this can be focused on during the new moons and full moons from tomorrow until dec 21 this year.
i request your prayers. i am suffering from chronic back pain, and it has been over four years. i pray that god's will be done in me and that i can serve. i recently had another procedure, and it has not taken effect yet. this has me rather emotional, and crying. please send me your healing light.
thanks,
amber

[clairead]

sending you reiki for your back. bless you for your lovingkindness, little one.
peace and love,
kelly

[Amber]

sending you reiki for your back. bless you for your lovingkindness, little one.
peace and love,
kelly
thanks, clairead. i must have faith and pray.
amber

[Rhonda]

love and healing light sent your way, amber.... keep your faith, believe that all things are possible and keep the strength that you already are to become who you know already


dear dc community,
my prayers go out to all of you who suffer or have loved ones in pain.
at this time of the approaching solar eclipse, our meditations can help the grid transformation and our own energies. this can be focused on during the new moons and full moons from tomorrow until dec 21 this year.
i request your prayers. i am suffering from chronic back pain, and it has been over four years. i pray that god's will be done in me and that i can serve. i recently had another procedure, and it has not taken effect yet. this has me rather emotional, and crying. please send me your healing light.
thanks,
amber

[Amber]

rhonda,
want to express my gratitude for your love and healing light. i have felt positive energies coming my way. i have participated in distance healing meditations. keeping it simple, i can say blessings to all in this dc community.
a

[NHY]

hi,

i'm irish and i'm sure that you've all heard about what has being happening in ireland the last few days, its a very bleak and gloomy situation. i won't elaborate but right now, things aren't looking too good.

i am asking for positive affirmations and prayers to be given for ireland, so that we can get out of this crisis and come out stronger from it.

thank you and have a good day.

a concerned irish person.

[Glothr]

hello dc,

about 2 weeks ago, a day or so after my uncle's funeral, i got sick with a bad cold. it started as a sore throat and congestion. it has been going back and forth between coughing a ton, congested to the point of not being able to breathe, and now my left ear canal is swelling up almost to the point of being shut. i surmise it is because i've blown my nose so much the last 2 weeks that my ear canals are really stressed.

i've been doing healing on myself in many different forms and it doesn't seem to be helping me as much as i want it to. i can't see a doctor because i don't have insurance so i'm limited to my own healing and over the counter drugs. any healing thoughts/prayers to help me get rid of this persistent illness would be much appreciated.

love, light, peace

[Natho]

the largest to hit any land mass in history is about to decend upon queensland, the eye of the storm is 100km wide which would usually lessen the severity of a cyclone but not in this case however, expected windspeeds of 300km/h.

australia has begun to feel the effects of earth changes now more than ever before, no sooner did the flooding of qld and southern australia finish, now this event.

so far my area sth of sydney has been lucky enough to have avoided these events so far but id like to ask those of you who are willing to spare the time to send your love through meditation to these people, they will need it in these hard times to come.

thank you all.

[Happystrings]

so far my area sth of sydney has been lucky enough to have avoided these events so far but id like to ask those of you who are willing to spare the time to send your love through meditation to these people, they will need it in these hard times to come. thank you all.

done. chicago and the middle of the united states has just experienced the third worst snow storm in 122 years of record keeping [20+" of snow in my neighborhood.]. this evening temperatures will drop into the single digits or below zero in some areas.

the weather is crazy everywhere, and australia seems to be getting the worst of it. we are warm and safe in the middle west; i wish the same for australia.

[Xisto]

i hope you all get along well!

it is good to know that the australian government always give heads up to citizens with good advance.

i've just seen a report on cnn that there at least three areas with major flooding risks.

my thoughts go out to you.

best of luck!

[GoldenGlow]

please join ashtar command crew in a planetary healing group for 5-minute meditations which will be every sunday* at 1:00 p.m. pst or 4:00 pm est for the purpose of healing our earth mother and her biosphere/energy field.

mother earth, a very sacred living library was strategically planned and birthed from the andromeda galaxy contained of the singularity that gave birth to our galaxy and of whom alone holds within her the light energy stargate that upholds all consciousness that resides within our galaxy not just her realm. just thought it would be nice to embrace this higher purview within the healing beam of our intent .

please prepare yourself and ground your energies into the earth a minute or two prior to starting this healing meditation. relax and close your eyes, ground your root chakra (1st chakra starting at the end of your spine). visualize a grounding cord from the base of your spine that goes through the floor down into the earth all the way to her crystalline core to the center of our earth mother.

then, when you are grounded, visualize a healing beam of light (which will come from the great central sun through your crown chakra (top of your head) going through your body and into our earth mother all the way to her crystalline core.

this healing light will continue flowing through you into our earth mother throughout the entire 5 minutes. lastly, project from your third eye (6th chakra middle of your forehead) a healing beam of light into our earth mother's ring of ascension (a ring around her middle much like other planets have) which will heal any cracks in her energy field/biosphere and sends love through her.

this will prove to be a powerful healing for our earth mother and you receive a healing in the process. thought projection/loving intent is so very powerful, and especially when done by a group.

thank you so much for understanding how important this is and making a soul decision to help and participate. this meditation is a bio-relativity meditation so that is also a valuable tool that you have learned and to have and know as healers. here is a time converter site: http://www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/

may the blessings be!

karen christine

[NegaNova]

praying for those in japan.

[cndcosmic]

love and light to all in japan...

[JanetC]

and more prayers to mitigate the radiation from the nuclear power plant - and for the safety of the brave heroes who are fighting to cool the system.

[rob_n86]

it tears me apart that i cannot afford the dental work required for my girlfriend. it just breaks my heart to see her in pain like that, and knowing i cant get her into a dentist. i was even denied a credit line for the work she needs. it is her last molar on the one side of her mouth and it was supposed to be savable, but with the pain now, we are not even sure. i wish there was something more i could do, but this is all i could think of. i know it's never to late, nothing is set in stone. i'll focus my energy on her healing, and please, i hope others will as well.